"Since when did you started surfing?", I asked Q sambil menyuap sesudu Panna cotta.
"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to lie to you.....well my first experience was 10 years ago. Cuma the opportunity didn't arise like right now, where I am.....beautiful beach and beautiful waves here. Selalu kalau pergi holiday, it's all about sight seeing and shopping....jarang I get to enjoy what I like to do.....", Q menjawab.
"Yes, I know what you mean.....There’s no greater feeling than surfing and that feeling of being part of the ocean, really riding on top of the world. The freedom, adventure and creativity all rolled into one. It’s easy to see why surfers love surfing so much and I also love teaching newbies to surf so they can experience that joy.", I expressed my passion about surfing.
Then Q added, "Once you surf, it’s about the next wave you’re going to catch, because you always want more, like a drug. It can be a great one you brag about, a frustrating one you missed, an amazing one no one saw but you tell everyone and they believe you.". And we laughed.
"Yeah....., you are absolutely right. It’s like sex: you can do it over and over, and it’s always new, you always look forward to the next set, even if the previous was great. You never go home saying you’ve had enough, mentally. You may be tired, sore, busy or tied up with work, but you always, always look forward to it.", I replied.
Q smiled in embarrassment. I saw her face flushed red. She looked the other way when she saw me staring at her.
"Have you exercise your sexual preference with any significant other?", I bluntly asked her.
She looked at me and laughed, "Must you know? And that line of question..., it's supposed to be polite?".
She is smart and beautiful in every way. She carries herself well and I can't imagine being with someone else. "Well, since we are all about being open with each other.....that is if you wanna share.....", I answered.
"I am not ready to give you an exposé of my sexual life....what about you? I am pretty sure you keep a list of girls you've slept with....", Q jawab sinis. She leans closer and looks deep into my eyes. She was flirting with me.....
"Me? Ouch...macam perli I saja...?", aku bertanya. She giggled "Do I look like a womanizer? Frankly speaking, I am a simple guy. For me love or cinta kepada seseorang hanya sekali dalam hidup. I thought I had it once, a long time ago....unfortunately it did not workout the way I planned. Salah I sendiri. That was the only serious relationship I had. Other than that,...yeah I do go out with other women on and off but nothing serious. Maybe I belum jumpa yang sesuai dengan jiwa I....Sleeping around.....? Nope. Flirting around? Yes....", I explained to Q as I stroke her hair back which almost covered her face when she looked down to her feet.
"What about you? Do you have anyone special?", I wanted to know from Q.
"Yes....", Q replied and she kept silent.
"What do you mean by Yes?", I asked and I ran my fingers on her left cheek.
"Scared you didn't I?", she was testing me. Naughty. I had to pinch her nose...."Ouch!", she squeak.
"No.....I am not seeing any special man, if that's what you want to know,.....until now.....", and she gave a soft smile. I wanna kiss her right now.....those lips of hers really turn me on......
"Are you listening what I'm saying.....?", terkejut aku. "Yes, yes I am......go on....", I replied.
"I lead a boring life. Mainly it revolves around my work, and family. I have told you before, only Kasyaff saja lelaki yang I percaya dan boleh harap. Nothing exciting.....no love life, no special guy in my life, not much night life and sex is totally out of the question. I value any free time I can find by hanging out with my girlfriends. Coffee, High Tea, clubbing on Saturday nights and sometimes slumber party with Juan and Khai.", she answered. I know she was nervous but I gently took her hands and kissed them, one at the time. My response caught her by surprise.
"What was that for...?", she asked.
"Nothing.......I just feel like kissing your hands. Is that a crime?", I was testing her reaction with a question.
"Tak lah sampai macam tu.....I like how you make me feel..", she replied and our fingers interlocked. I felt we have a deep, caring relationship as a couple. In other words we are comfortable being open and honest with each other.
"And how do I make you feel....?", I would like to hear in her own words.
Q stood up and walked to the balcony facing the ocean. I followed her from behind and wrapped my arms around her shoulders. The charcoal black night sky decorate with sparkling stars filling the empty spaces in the dark sky. I stared up at the the sky and studied the silver glow of the moon. Then I heard she took a deep breathe.
"Imran, we are having such an intimate conversation tonight. I feel like you know me well, inside and out. You make me feel so good about myself....", and Q turn to look at me. "I'm falling in love with you, Imran....", and she rested her head on my chest. There is nothing more I want to hear from Q. My spontaneous reaction was to hold her in my arms and never letting her go. "Please don't ever stopped loving me Q........I love you so much....... ", I whispered closed to her ears and kissed her forehead.
