Chapter 29

I leaned against the seat and watched the thick white clouds out from my window. They looked so soft and fluffy like cotton balls. My vacation will come to an end in a few hours......


"Q, last night you asked me why I don't stay with my mother when I'm in Bali. And I said I will tell you when we leave Ubud?" Imran tiba-tiba bersuara. "It was because I didn't want to ruin our moment.", he paused.

I almost forgotten about it......I turn my head towards Imran and placed my right hand on top of his left hand.

"I am ready to share with you about my mother.", he stopped, looked at me and squeezed my hand. Then he continued. "I love her, my mother......., and I am not embarrassed by her actions. We are given choices in life. You could go either way, right or wrong. Nobody is perfect."

Aku terkejut dengan huraian panjang lebarnya but I was composed.

"Did I catch you by surprised...? Remember when you asked me on the way to Ubud, why I don't stay with my mother whenever I'm in Bali?" he said.

"Yes, of course I remember.....I'm listening.", I replied and smiled at him. Gave him my fullest attention.

He sat up and turn to face me. No smiles but he ran his fingers on my hair. He pulled the sides of my hair and tucked it nicely behind my ears.

"Selepas kematian my father, Bunda remarried into an affluent family in Bali. Love accedes all. In order for the marriage to be legal, she willingly converted to Hindu religion. Our relationship become strained as I objected to her way of life. But as they say blood is thicker than water.  I recently patched things up with her. It was her choice but I prefer not to interfere with her way of life. I do visit her in Ubud whenever I return to Bali. She deserves the respect." He expressed deeply.

My lips were slightly parted. Aku menelan air liur. Wow...! hati aku berkata.......I don't know if I am able to take such a stand when it comes to love....

I don't know how to respond. "But you have been very strong and I know how difficult it must have been for you.  Family relationship tak semestinya putus just because of this. You made the right decision patching things up with your mother." I held his left hand and gave it a soft squeeze. I slowly placed my head on his left arm. Imran kissed my head.

After two and a half hours, we finally touch down in KLIA and I can't wait to get into my bed. Ha..ha...what was I thinking.....On the other hand, I am gonna missed Imran. His smile, touch and laughter's. Hmmm....I can feel the warmth of his hugs.

After collecting our luggage we proceed to the arrival hall. Aku berjalan di belakang Imran when suddenly I heard Imran called out to someone.

Imran : "Hey man, what are you doing here.......!"

Kasyaff : "Imran.....?! How are you bro......?" They shook hands. I stopped when Imran stopped. I almost ran into him.

I still can't see who it was....... "You just landed?", the voice again said.

Itu seperti suara Abang Ngah! I immediately let go off Imran's hand and smoothly turn 180 degree. I quickly walkaway and stood in a corner. I just hope he didn't see me. I managed to eves drop on their conversation.

Imran : "Yeah...yeah....from Bali.....". I heard Imran replied.

Kasyaff : "Bali?" He sounded anxious.

Imran : "Yeah...Bali.....yeah your sister was on the same flight and you're here to pick her up?"

Darn it! Why must Imran let him know. Eeee...geramnya aku...!

Kasyaff : "Really?.....Do you know where she headed?

Imran : "Sorry man....., she didn't mention....hey, I gotta rush. It was nice to see you again. We should do lunch sometime....". Imran said.

Kasyaff : "Yes, we must. Hey man, thanks and take care.", replied Kasyaff and he left. I think.

Suddenly someone grabbed my waist and kissed my hair. I froze. " He's gone. We better leave now! I'll explain later." It was Imran........lega rasanya. He took off his cap and placed it on my head so that I am not recognizable.

We got into the cab and he had his arm around me. " It's okay. He's long gone. You're alright?", he said and kissed my left cheek.

Aku mengangguk.

Imran menyerahkan tiket kepada pemandu limousine. The guy asked, "Cyberjaya dekat dengan Eco Glades ke?".

"Ya. Nanti dah sampai Eco Glades saya tunjuk jalan ke rumah saya...", replied Imran. He rubbed his hands on my back so to comfort me in a way.

"Ok....tuan baru balik dari berbulan madu?", asked the driver.

Berbulan madu.....? Trying to be friendly I'm guessing but Imran response was out of this world, again...

"Lebih kurang macam tu....kami baru balik dari Bali." He answered.

"Dua tahun lepas saya ke Bali. Seronok. Orang rumah saya kerja dengan Airasia jadi tahun tu dia dapat tiket pergi balik ke Bali.....", shared the driver.

Imran gave a huge smile listening to the driver's story. "Mula-mula saya takut jugak nak pergi Bali. Teringat Bali kena bom....ramai mati.....tapi sebab orang rumah nak sangat ke Bali.....saya ikut saja...", he laughed.

"Abang enjoy tak?", Imran seems to enjoy the conversation.

" Mestilah.....kami pergi bedua saja. Anak-anak kami tinggalkan. Suruh kakak dan abang sulongnya jaga adik-adik.....", he laughed again.....and so did Imran. Aku yang sedari tadi mendengar perbualan mereka menyampuk.....

"Berapa anak abang?, I asked. Imran seems could not believe his ears when I popped out a question. He gave me a squeeze on the arm.

"Lima....si kakak 24 dan abang 23....dua-dua dah kerja....pandai-pandailah mereka jaga adik-adik tu.......yang lain-lain sekolah lagi.......17, 14, 8....",  he answered.

Kami berborak all the way sampai Cyberjaya and Imran directed the driver to my place. We got down in front of the guard house and passed some tips to the driver. We said our good byes and he left.

"Imran, you can take my car tonight. I won't be needing it tomorrow." I said.

"You're sure it's alright? I can just call a cab....", he responded.

" No, seriously. It's the least I can do...with you sending me all the way back here....Come on, follow me, I'll get the keys for you....Or you rather wait here...?", I gave him his options.

"I'll come with you. I don't want to stand here alone....look at the short guard....he has been looking and smiling at me......", Imran sounded serious. I turn and saw Imran keeps looking his back.....he laughed.....

"You think it's funny huh....?" I said. He came over and grabbed my waist...."I was just kidding...", and a big peck on my head.

"Jahatlah you ni....", as I tapped on his stomach. We walked to my unit and I invited him in. "No, it's alright, I'll just wait out here for you...", he replied.

"Yes, it's better that way.....wait here......". I went in and grabbed my car keys and a spare access card. I ran back to the door....

"Nah, ini kunci kereta and this is the access card. You will need it when you leave the premise.", I explained. He looked at me reluctantly.

"I'll return the car tomorrow...and I will explain what just happened in the limousine. I promised....", he assured me. I just smiled at him.He smiled back me and kissed my hand.

Chapter 28

The next morning we left Echo Beach and headed to Hotel Suarga in Padang Padang Beach. I am still not sure where I'll be putting a night since I have already checked out from Alila Villa. I switched on my internet data and search for a place to stay. Don't want to inconvenient Imran but knowing him I am pretty sure he would want me to stay in Padang Padang Beach.

"Updating your journal?" Imran asked. Aku tersenyum.

"Kind of....", I replied. "What should I get for your mother?", I asked innocently.

"What do you mean....", he wasn't sure what I meant.

"What I mean....since I am meeting your mother for the first time....should I get a nice gift for her? I am not sure of the local customs here......maybe you care to enlightened me......", I explained.

Imran laughed....."Enlighten you...? You ni cute la.....nak ambil hati future mother in-law lah ni ya....?", he responded. "Don't worry.....and it is very thoughtful of you Q......you know what, how about we'll stop on the way to Ubud and get some local desserts?" he suggested.

"I like that idea....", I answered. "What type of dessert are we getting?" I asked again.

"Well, there's Klepon which is very similar to kueh buah melaka or ondeh-ondeh. And then there is Kue Jaje Bantal macam chinese kueh 'chang' which is also wrapped in daun palas. Kadang-kadang intinya kacang merah or it can also contain cooked beef rendang or whatever is available. The oblong shape is why it is call bantal. We could also get some Laklak, which is my favorite. They are smaller version of pancakes and you eat with grated coconut and palm sugar....". Imran explained dengan panjang lebar.

 I kept quiet as I listen him describing the local dessert. Jari jemari aku pantas mengapai kekunci tekan Ipad.

"Did you manage to get all.....", Imran bertanya. Aku memaling kepala ke kanan....."You perli I ye.....?" I said and smiled at him......

Imran giggled....."Tak ...I tak perli you....I cuma bergurau.....losen up a little....you nervous ke?", he replied.

Aku mecebek muka aku dan mengeleng kepala dan menjawab...,"Nope. I am fine."

Then he asked, "What's your favourite kueh?"

I left the question unanswered. 


"So why is that you don't stay with your mother when you come back to Bali?", I bluntly asked him.

"Hmmmmm......., it's a long story....", he replied. His voice sounds heavy.

"I'm sorry.....I didn't mean to pry into your private life...anyway, let's change the subject....", I responded as I was making him rather uncomfortable with that conversation.

"No....nothing to be sorry about....I will tell you when we leave Ubud...., I promise...", he said and I just kept quiet. I am starting to get anxious they way he reacted. Kenapa agaknya? Apa misteri sebenar?

We had a change of clothes and on the way to Ubud, we stopped by a shop selling many local pastries and delicacies. They were so colorful and obviously sweet. Thinking about it make my tooth ache....I smiled to myself. Imran was selecting the best piece for his mom. He popped in a few hundred rupiah in to the lady's hand. She didn't want to accept except the exact amount but Imran insisted. Instead, the lady added 5 pieces of Klepon. Imran bring his palm together, graciously thanked and bow slightly out of respect. "Sopannya", bisik hati aku.

We arrived in Ubud to an open sight location. I was a little confused. It looks like a majestic palace since there are guards standing at two entrances. Adjacent to the palace somewhat looks like a temple as people come and go, making offerings. Palm leaves made into square mini basket contains food and flowers...placed all over the walkway.....

Imran introduce ourselves to the guard and that we are here to meet Ibu Dewi Kusuma. "Sbentar ya pak....permisi....", said the guard as he left us standing under the sun. I find it quite odd as I see lots of tourist a like walking on the premise. Is this a public place? And why are we meeting his mother here?

The guard who was wearing a sarong, short sleeve shirt and a head gear came back. "Silakan.....", he said and guided us to a garden with a gazebo. "Puteri Jero Ayu...., ini tetamunya...", said the guard and Imran quickly passed the sweet dessert to the guard.The guard took 3 steps behind, bowed and left. Later I found out that he is not a guard. He is a palace servant!

We stood standing facing Puteri Jero Ayu. She was perhaps in her late fifties but still looks beautiful. She does not need make-up. Her smiles brings out the natural beauty in her. Sekali pandang she looks like the Bond girl, Barbara Carrera especially with her tanned skin. Imran doesn't look anything like his mother. Maybe he gets his looks from his father.....

Aku memerhatikan Imran yang dari tadi menundukkan kepala dan memberi salam hormat seperti yang dia lakukan pada penjual kueh. Aku pun ikut sama apa yang Imran buat.

Imran greeted his mother, "Om suastiastu, Bunda...punapi gatra?", and he lifted his head.

"Imran, kemari.....aku ini Bunda kamu...tak perlu protokol...aku orang Sunda...", she insisted Imran sat next to her. Imran obliged and invited me to sit next to him. "Bunda merindui kamu. Kapan tiba di Bali?", as she caresses Imran's hand. I was so fascinated how soft and gentle her spoken words.

"Udah 5 hari dan Imran akan berangkat pulang ke Malaysia esok. By the way, I missed you very much, Bunda.". He hugged his mother.

"Bunda, Imran kemari mahu Bunda ketemu teman istimewa. Ini, Quxandria." Imran introduce me to his mother. I stood up, salam dan mencium tangan Ibu Imran.

I looked up and saw she smiled, "Cocok sekali buat kamu....kemari....", she said to me and I slowly sat next to her. Imran's mother took my hand and saw the ring. "Lumayan....Sira wastan jerone....ah! maaf Bunda ya....apa nama ya, lupa Bunda".


"Quxandria, or Q...for short.", I replied. Imran memerhatikan aku sambil tersenyum.

 
"I'm sensing that both of you are in a relationship? Quxandria sukak sama Imran?", his mother asked in an Australian accent.

"Ya Bunda.....", aku menjawab pendek.

Then the servant arrived and served us the desserts we brought earlier. "Rahajeng semeng." said the servant and place the dessert in front of us.

"Mari teman Bunda ngajeng....", she said. I guess she is inviting us to eat with us. Then she place each dessert on to a plate and placed in front of me. I thanked her.

"Bunda, Imran kemari untuk ask for your blessing. I want to marry Q....", Imran explained.

His mother turned to me. "Apa Quxandrian setujuk?, his mother asked. I wasn't sure if she was asking the question because Imran immediately replied, "Yes she has accepted my proposal.", and nodded at the same time.

"Baik buat anak Bunda, baik juga buat Bunda. Bunda restu pilihan Imran. Harus jadi suami yang baik dan bertimbang rasa. Inggih, Bunda senang sekali pilihan kamu." She kissed Imran on the forehead. Imran again held his hands close together and slightly bow, "Matur suksma." His mom bowed back in return.

I don't quite understand with the mixed language between them. Must be Balinese. The 'protocol' mentioned earlier made me more confused. All in all it was a fruitful visit.

Chapter 27

"How I envy you..........perancangan Tuhan kan?", aku bersuara semasa kami duduk bersantai di lower deck. Aku memerhati Imran.....hidungnya yang mancung.....rambutnya.......lighter shade of brown......his strong jawline....I am not dreaming......Aku memandang semula ke arah lautan yang terbentang luas......I pinched myself.....ouch! yes it hurts.....

"Alhamdulillah.....I can't complained. God has been kind to me.", Imran answered.

We remained quiet.....until Captain Ian called," Imran and his beautiful guest, please.....this way....." and he walked us thru the dining area.  Dinner is served."

"What a beautiful setting, Captain.", aku memuji. Imran memimpin aku ke meja makan. Selesai aku melabuhkan punggungku di atas kerusi, Captain Ian menjumput makan, "Please enjoyed our dinner."

Captain Ian tersenyum dan berlalu pergi leaving us some privacy. Later he and Budi joined us for desserts and coffee.


"We will dock in about an hour time.", said Captain Ian as he sipped his coffee.

"Fantastic. We need to pack up soon as we arrived to the villa. We're leaving for Malaysia on Tuesday.", Imran explained to Captain Ian. Aku hanya tersenyum dan menganggukkan kepala.

" I hope both of you had a great time in Bali. Whenever you are in town do give me a ring and we can plan for a scuba diving trip." replied the Captain as he excuse himself. We shook hands and continued with our dessert while the Captain left for an unfinished business.

We continued our conversation into the living area while await the yacht to dock.

Imran yang dari tadi senyap tiba-tiba bersuara, "Q...., I would like you to meet my mother....here in Bali....", he said and it caught me off guard.

"Segan pulak I rasa. Are you sure?", I asked him back sambil menunduk malu.

"Yes....I am sure. I want to introduce to her the woman I am marrying. I want to ask for her blessings...". He explained and smiled sheepishly.

"I really like that very much.......", I replied without hesitation and I saw a huge beam on the face.

"We'll drive back to Padang Padang tomorrow morning and head straight to Ubud. Aku mengangguk setuju.
 
That night we arrived at the villa around 10:30 p.m. I was very tired and I immediately excused myself to my room. I know Imran would like to sit and talk more but I was just too tired. "Imran, I masuk tidur ya. I had a wonderful time with you today. Thank you so much. You spoil me to bits....", I looked at him as I held his hands.

"Sure, you go ahead. I know you're tired. I'll see you in the morning for breakfast say about 7:30 a.m?", he replied. He walked closer to me and placed both of his hands on the sides of my face. He kissed softly on both cheeks and one on my lips. I closed my eyes as I kissed him back. I fell into his arms and he held me tight. "Come, I'll walk you to your room.".

Soon as we reached my room, he opened the bedroom door....." Assalamualaikum...", he said. I lifted his hand and planted a soft kiss. I looked up and said, " Waalaikum salam....".

Malam tu aku menalipon Khai. I wanna share the good news....

Me : Hello Khai....kau dah tidur ke?

Khai : Eeeerrrrrrr......hello? siapa ni? Kalau aku dah tidor aku tak angkat call kau ni....

Me : Hey....kenapa ni....kau tidur yeee.....bangun, bangun ni aku, Q la.........Bangun la......".

Khai : Mana kau pergi...?....Pukul berapa ni hah....? Ni aku ni penat melayan abang kau yang 24 angau kat kau. Eh! kau tak call dia? Dia asyik call aku then Juan tanya bila kau balik. Aku cakaplah yang kau dah jumpa pakwe Indon and tak nak balik Malaysia.....

Me : (Aku ketawa)....

Khai : Hah....ketawa lah.....he's pretty mad with us. Jangan sampai aku kenan buang kerja sudah........Sometimes he looks miserable pun ada...I seriously think you need to talk with him, fast. Aku tak nak dia masuk mental hospital."

Me : Tahulah aku deal with him nanti. Anyway, aku call ni nak cerita kat kau yang Imran dah melamar aku. He gave me a ring!, I explain excitedly. Nanti aku share gambar dalam whatsapp....and he is taking me to see his mom in Ubud.....

Khai : No way....!? You're serious? Congrats Q, I am so happy for you......!

Me : Thanks Khai. I am falling in love with him everyday. I never felt this way before about another man....

Khai : Macamlah banyak sangat lelaki yang you go out with. Most of them just want a one night stand dengan kau saja.....ingat sikit kalau tak ada abang kau tu.....isyhhhh......kau ni....'dah hisap madu, sepah di buang.....'. Aku tak faham apa yang dibebelkan oleh Khai.

Me : Amboi....,mulut...., laser nya......kau lecture aku ya......

Khai : Aku cakap yang betul. Abang kau tu yang terhegeh-hegeh mengekor kau dari belakang.....mana ada lelaki nak kan kau.....this time you were smart.....frankly speaking, aku pun suka Imram. Aku suka tengok muka kau orang bila berjumpa,......aku yang tengok pun membahang pipi aku....you guys ada chemistry. Jangan lebih-lebih sudah......dia ada cuba nak.....you know....have sex.....?

Me : Imran...? He has been a gentleman. He had every opportunity Khai......

Khai : Kalau dia nak kan kau....kau bagi.....? Jangan tipu.....

Me : Hey....I'm not that cheap......(kami tergelak)

Khai : Tak....aku serious ni....ketawa, ketawa jugak....you take care of yourself. The rest can wait bila dah kahwin nanti....aku nak tidur. Besok aku kerja nanti lambat pulak bangun.....call abang kau tu.........

Me : Okay Khai. Kau jangan cerita dulu hal aku dengan Imran. Tunggu bila aku buat official announcement.

Khai : Yelah...yelah....good night.

Me : Thanks Khai....good night....(aku terus mencari gambar cincin dalam album mobile phone dan forward to Khai.)

Khai : 💞 nice....Sure mahalkan....berapa harga?

Me : I don't know. I kena tanya ke....?

Khai : 😫

Chapter 26

I left my room 5 minutes to 4 p.m. and walked to the terrace. There was a soft music playing in the background and I saw a table for two. I looked around and to my right I saw Imran and he had his back towards me. I guess he must have heard me coming in when he turned and gave me a wide smile.

"I hope I'm not too over dressed...", I said and walked straight to him. He put both of his hands on my hips and kissed me on both cheeks.

"No, you look fantastic. It's me.....I'm under dress...hahaha....did you had a good rest?" he laughed and guided me to the table. I sat and he slightly pushed the chair inside. I nodded," Yes, I did, thank you.....".

"Nice choice of music....dah lama I tak dengar Shakatak....", I started to warm up the afternoon.

"I thought you might like them.....memang dah lama Shakatak ni.....soft and smooth jazz.", he replied as he sat down opposite of me. He stared at me. Aku mula rasa membahang pipi aku apabila Imran bersikap demikian. Aku menundukkan kepala and he was still staring at me when I lifted my head a few seconds later. Then he spoke.

"Q....., you know that I love you. And I hope you feel the same way like I do. Even though we've just met I nak perhubungan kita di satukan secepat mungkin.  In my opinion perkara yang baik elok disegerakan. But before we make it official.....", and he took out something from his pocket and placed it on the table. Mata aku memerhatikan kotak putih yang berbentuk bulat. Is that what I think it is?

Imran membuka kotak tadi and mengeluarkan sebentuk cincin emas bertatah belian. Holding it between his thumb and pointer finger he said,"Sudi tak sekiranya Q berkahwin dengan Imran...?".

I guess I was still in shock that I remained quiet and that made Imran anxious. Tiba-tiba aku bersuara, "I wasn't expecting this Imran. I have fallen in love with you numerous time over the course of time we spent together. I finally found a man who cares so much for me and who loves me for who I am. Imran, I berdoa agar jodoh kita berkekalan hingga ke Jannah. Yes, I am absolutely ready to marry you....".

Tanpa berlenggah lagi, Imran menyarungkan cincin di jari manis ku dan dikucupnya tangan aku. I was touched by his response and my next instinct was to hug him.......I lean closer, hugged him and gave a soft kiss on his lips. He smiled and said, "Thank you, sayang. I love you...".

" Let's have something to eat. I have another surprise waiting for you....", he whispered close to my ears.

"Another surprise? I am still trying to get over the first one....", and I laughed and pushed him away.

"Well, too bad.....when you're with me.....everyday is a surprise....", he lift his fork lalu menyuap aku dengan sedikit cheese cake...Segan rasanya bila diperlakukan sebegitu.

"Hmmm....this is good, no, so good....", I have to admit and nodded my head couple of times. Savoring the cheesy and milky marble cheese cake made me forget who I was with.....He took the napkin and dabbed the sides of my mouth. Aku tergelak. "Comot ke?", as I grabbed the napkin from him.

"Tak..", he said. "I always wanted to do that....kalau dalam drama tv, selalukan ada scene macam ni....".

Aku tergelak lagi. " You ni ada-ada je....", I replied.

After tea we drove to a jetty and parked our pick up truck. Imran was way ahead of me and I was trying to catch with him......I slowed down when I saw him talking to two guys then he spoke on his cell phone and they pointed to the sea. They laughed and looked at me. Then nodded and shook hands. Imran waved at me to come closer. I did as I was told....then he disappeared into the yacht.....

As I walk closer, Imran reappeared and he held his arm to help me on board. Wow....! a boat ride..."When did you changed?", sambil memerhatikan Imran yang sudah berseluar pendek....Dia hanya senyum dan memerhatikan aku...."Careful sayang, watch your steps.....", he uttered.

"Surprised? Remember I said before if I want to impress someone, I would take her sail on a yacht around this island?", he said and I nodded.

"So this is surprise number 2!", he looked delighted. "This yacht belongs to the same owner who owns the villa we are staying. They are in Australia and I've known him since my college years. The Australian couple used to recruit me during summer breaks so that I can earn some cash to continue with my studies. I had a hard live when I was growing up. Things didn't come easy for me. I had to work hard to get what I want and that has been my principal later in life. Now, I get to enjoy life and work at my own pace.", explain Imran. A sight I've never seen before......


I was introduced to Captain Ian and one of his crew, Budi Utama. We were given safety briefing as well as the do and don't being while on the yacht. No shoes on board, do not invade the private crews area without specific instruction, do not take matters in your hands and no illegal activities....

We set sail and I took the steps leading to the lower deck. There were two sundeck chairs on the right side of the yacht, and plush pillows stacked on the deck. I sat down and later lay a bit. That's when I heard Imran calling me from a distance......I looked around and finally  looked up. Imran snapped pictures of me from the upper deck...!

Chapter 25

We decided to settle down just before noon. I had such a terrific time. We had lunch at the Beach House Restaurant on Echo Beach.

Suasana di sini sungguh happening. Lots of foreigners and adakalanya terasa 'out of place'......Imran told me that he had rented a place for the night. " Don't worry the house has 6 bedrooms and you can chose whichever one your prefer.....", he reassured that I have my own privacy. 

After lunch we proceeded to the house.....and it wasn't a house I expected but a luxury house with infinity pool and facing the beach. I am sure it was expensive to rent the house. We sat in the living room and I decided to bring up the money spent on accommodation during his stay in Bali.

"Imran, you sure live such a luxury life here in Bali. Do you need to spend this much to impress me?", I'm hoping he has the answers to my curiosity.

"To impress you? Ha..ha..ha... tak de lah....jangan salah sangka. I bukan nak impress you. If I wanna do that, I would have rented a yacht and take you around the island. That is how to impress a woman. This....? This is nothing.....I know someone and I get a good price for this place. Why not? Sorry to disappoint you....", he replied and somehow his respond made me feel embarrassed. Nampaknya aku yang perasan lebih. 

"Alright then.....thank you for the lengthy explanation.", aku memandang Imran yang mengerut dahinya. "I might as well resume to my 'boudoir' this afternoon. Are we catching the sunset waves?"

"Definitely! How 'bout meeting back here around 4 p.m.?", Imran replied and looked at his wrist watch.

"Okay...I leave now so you will catch some silence and solitude. Don't worry I can find my way around this place." I got up and walked over to Imran. I planted a kiss on his cheek and Imran grabbed my wrists. I pulled back and he let me go. I was surprised he didn't fight. Instead he let me go gently. I stood up and walked passed him.....in search for 'moi boudoir' ....

I took up the room on the ground floor where it has a double pane glass door facing the garden and the sea. Some people are born lucky to see this each day while some have to pay in order to enjoy such a luxury. 

I walked further in to the room and there was a huge LCD television screen with satellite tv programming, dvd and Bose sound system. There’s an iPod dock, plus a library of the latest films on dvd.....my jaw dropped when I found out iPod dock is connected to speakers throughout the villa and the garden. Is that necessary......? I guess some do enjoy the exclusive facility they pay for.....

Laying in bed after shower, I switched on to the TV and watched an adventure program called My Trip My Adventure. "Wow, the guy resembles Imran so much....", aku berbisik di dalam hati sambil  meniarap di atas katil watching the presenter's adventure.  Couldn't catch clearly his name........but he's my kind of guy.....I would definitely click with some one like him. 

Sambil berangan dan sambil memerhatikan jam, masih ada lagi setengah jam sebelum pukul 4 petang. Then someone slipped an envelop under my door. I sat up and looked around. I crawled off the bed and walked closer to the envelop. I picked it up and slide a piece of paper out. 

An Invitation 

Afternoon Tea

on the terrace

4 p.m.

Imran

No RSVP so I assume I am expected at tea. I smiled then I giggled. His antics. He is very charming and that always makes me weak to my knees when I'm with him. But at the same time, I feel a sense of relief and comfort when Imran is around. Hilang semua tekanan.....

Opened up my duffle bag, I realized I didn't have anything to wear to the afternoon tea. I just have to make do with what I have....

Tiba-tiba aku tergerak untuk membaca messages from my cellphone. Pelik.....kenapa banyak missed call dari Khai and Juan? But why didn't they leave any messages for me on Whatsapp? They know that I am with Imran....so I decided to call Khai.

Me : Hi Khai.....how are you? Banyak miss call dari kau and Juan. Anything urgent ke?

Khai : Q! Mana kau pergi? We went to Imran's villa and the Front Desk Manager said that he's away for a few days. Kau dengan Imran kan?

Me : Khai...Khai...Khai...relax okay. Yes, I am with Imran in Echo Beach at Canggu. I am fine. Kenapa?

Khai : Hish! Kau ni let us know la.....risau la kami. Ni....2 things. Abang kau cari and kami tak tahu nak tipu apa lagi. He kept on calling me then Juan nak tanya kau kat mana....and when you're coming back.

Me : Sibuk betul dia tu....he knows I'm in Bali....what the hell does he wants from me?

Khai : Itu aku tak tahu.....kau call dia lah....

Me : Ahh! malas nak layan orang gila macam dia.....

Khai : Call je la dia....mana tahu ada apa-apa hal kat umah ke....?

Me : Hmmmm....tengoklah nanti.....

Khai : Q, you dah confirm ticket tak? Esok kita dah nak balik.....atau....kau dah nak tinggal terus kat Bali ni.....?

Me : (giggling).....tak de lah terus tinggal sini. Imran is taking me to several surfer's beaches untuk test waves. Best sangat. Khai, I am enjoying myself here a lot....Aku dan Imran decided nak berkahwin soon....

Khai : Kahwin!?! Kau jangan main-main Q......balik Malaysia dulu. Fikir masak-masak and discussed with your parents....

Kedengaran Juan di background...."Put her on speaker phone Khai!", jerit Juan.

Juan : Kahwin?! Q, kau ni apa cerita dengan Imran.....?

Me : We're planning to get married soon, Juan......I am so happy when I'm with him....I'm postponing my departure to Tuesday....we have one more beach to see.....

Juan : Q...., come back to the villa and we discussed further.....

Me : Nope. I'm going back on Tuesday dengan Imran......and we're going straight to my parents. I have to break the news to them in person sebelum abang aku tahu....

Khai : Kau ni suka buat kerja gila....Imran tahu plan kau nak introduce dia to your parents?

Me : He will when I see him later.......by the way kau tolong pack up barang aku and store kat reception nanti esok malam aku datang ambik ya...?

Khai : Suka hati kau lah. Apa-apa pun kami support your decision....keep in touch tau....

Me : Will do.....girls, take care and see you next week. Bye.

Chapter 24

We got into the truck and left Imran's villa about 5:30 a.m. I was tired and felt sleepy since I haven't slept the whole night. Melayan kekasih hati.....

Imran put on some soft music dan kemerduan Chris Rea membuat aku khayal seketika. "Q, kalau you mengantuk, tidurlah. You must be really tired.", Imran said. I looked at him and nodded.

Credit to Setzehomes and You Tube

Between the eyes of love I call your name

Behind those guarded walls I used to go

Upon a summer wind there's a certain melody

Takes me back to the place that I know

On the beach

Down on the beach

"I will....don't worry about me. Just be careful with your driving. I nak layan sekejap lagu ni....the sound of the wave hitting the beach......so soothing and just perfect to where were heading....", I replied and folded my legs in a yoga position. I took out my Ipad and start typing my journey with Imran. I should have started earlier to capture all the fun time we both spent. The things that were said, intimate secret accounts and promises kept between us. Ahhh....I will make a point to update my journal on daily basis.

The secrets of the summer I will keep

The sands of time will blow a mystery

No one but you and I, Underneath that moonlit sky

Take me back to the place that I know, on the beach

yeah yeah

Down on the beach

Get down on the beach

 Forever in my dreams my heart will be

Hanging on to this sweet memory

A day of strange desire And a night that burned like fire

Take me back to the place that I know, on the beach

"Apa yang you buat tu....? Sini tak ada coverage.", he said and looked at me.

"Imran....please,....your eyes on the road....I cuma update my journal about my trip to Bali.", I replied and kept on typing.

"I see....what have you written so far...?", he asked.

"Are you sure you want to know?", aku bertanya.

"Yeah.....come on read to me...", he insisted.

"Alright....but jangan gelak ya nanti.....semua ni datang dari perasaan I. Okay listen.....fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you, who understands you. Someone who helps you, and guides you, someone who supports you, your hope. Fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight. Fall in love with someone who misses you and wants to be with you. Do not fall in love only with a body or with a face; or with the idea of being in love." I read out to him.

But Imran kept quiet.....

"So something to ponder upon right? You were in a total silence.....", I said and I kept myself busy typing on my Ipad.

"Q....", Imran called out my name but .......he went silent.

"Kenapa Imran......? Did I said something wrong?" I stopped whatever I was doing and focus my attention on Imran.

"I am trying to digest what you've just read and I think it was beautiful....", he hold my hand, smiled and continued, "I love you Q...", sambil mengenggam erat tangan aku.

It was a long journey and I must have fallen a sleep half way through.

When I woke up I was already leaning against Imran's chest. "Kita dah sampai ke....? Did I miss the sunrise?", I asked and rubbed my eyes. At the same time I tried to sit up. Imran helped to position myself and he has his hands on my shoulder all the time. I felt love.

"Nope, you woke up right on time. Here, let me cover you up.", as we sat in the truck watching the sunrise. "Are you warm enough...", he asked. Aku menganggukkan kepala.

We sat there in silence. I sat in awe and took a deep breathe.  A golden ray appeared in the sky early in the morning. I watched as it grew into a big ball of fire changing from dark orange to dark yellow as it began to heat up the earth. It moved across the sky with grace……Seagull flying low to catch their feed for the day…….and the beautiful waves….roaring…….at times you can see an A-frame that is a wave peak breaking left and right with perfect shape.  I hope tonight's sunset will be as miraculous!

I got off the truck and did a few stretching. I looked around for Imran and saw him unloading the surfboard. "Imran, do you need any help?", aku bertanya.

"It's alright, I am fine. You go ahead and change. There's a public bath next to the surf hut right up there...", aku memalingkan kepala sambil memerhatikan tempat yang Imran described. Seriously....? Takut rasanya aku nak ke sana....

"Nah, it's okay I can just change here.", aku menjawab dan mengintai Imran.

"Here?", Imran replied and I saw him peek at me from behind his truck. I started to unzip my jeans and he still stood there....."You're really serious, aren't you..?", he said.

"Imran....., I'm serious but not crazy.....I have my swim suit underneath.....I had it on before we left Padang-Padang.", aku jawab dan menjelir lidah ke arah Hans. Dia tersenyum sambil mengcekak pinggang lalu menggeleng kepala. He came over to me and lift me up. Aku terkejut lalu tergelak berdekah-dekah.....

"Once you are done with stripping in public help me with the surfboards. Kalau tak I campak you ke laut.....", Imran membuai-buai seolah ingin mencapak aku ke laut....

"Imran.....! Put me down....!", aku meronta-ronta manja sambil kami ketawa terkekek-kekek......

He carried me to the truck and he put me down. He started to unload the surfboards."Here, grabbed this one (he passed me a surf board)......come on...", he said.

I followed Imran from behind carrying my surfboard. Then I smiled when a wave sweeps up the beach and returns to the ocean, sometimes colliding with incoming waves. I was amped. What a weird feeling. I am afraid of the open sea but I forget my fears when I surf…..

We both paddle battle to get into the first curl and gain the right of way. I place my regular foot on the board and popped up. Easing and getting to balance my weight with both arms. Next....., you just need  to dance. Follow where the waves guide you......

Chapter 23

"Q, I have a suggestion if you are interested." and that made Q looked at me with interest.

"Ok........", Q said. I planted a gentle kiss on her lips.

"Alright. There are 9 other surfing beaches. Let's test a few waves, just you and me. No one else. We take our  own sweet time and no rules except in the water.....", I suggested. Her eyes twinkled.

"Seriously? How are going to finish all 9 beaches in 2 days?, she asked anxiously.

"We'll travel from one beach to another....if we are not able to cover all, there's always next time, right?", I explained to Q and she seems to be in agreement.

"Okay, I suka idea you.....it's like a dream vacation kan?", and she twirled around. I laughed and I am thrilled she is all for the surfing trip.

"But.....you kena dengar cakap I and listen to my instructions. The waves sometimes can be dangerous if you lack of experience. I do not want you to hurt yourself. One other thing kita tak boleh cakap besar about our capabilities playing with the waves. Can we agree on that..?", I warned Q.

"Alright, I agree and I akan dengar semua instruction you.", she accepted my terms and conditions.

"Okay. Anyway just sharing some facts about Padang Padang Beach which also known as Labuan Sait Beach. This beach is discovered by surfer enthusiast.  However this beach was made popular around 1996 when a boy band called Michael Learns To Rock (MLTR) made a video clip here for one of their songs. Perhaps you can check out from the internet for the song. I tak ingat. But the best part Julia Robert was on this beach for the Eat, Pray, Love movie set. They closed the entire beach to public during the shooting. But now, surfers find this beach a bit tainted. Too many people coming here so we tend to find a new beach as our own surfing paradise.", Imran explained.

"Interesting....I watch the movie a couple of times and I know that the third part of the movie was shot in Bali. Tapi tak tahu pulak they used this beach....Javier Bardem was sexy by the way....", she responded and glanced at my lips.

"I hope I am not making you bored with all these information....", I said.

"Nope you're not....", Q replied. She  walked back to the sofa while still holding my hand. I followed her. We sat down. She instantly lean on me and I wrapped my right arm over her shoulder. She caressed my arm.

"But, you know what......I love Echo Beach or Pantai Batu Mejan and that will be our destination tomorrow....", I told her.

"How far is it from here?', Q asked. She makes herself comfortable in my arms. I like very much having her this close to me.

"Well, to get to Echo Beach is about an hour drive from here. We can start at 5 a.m. and reach there about  6 a.m. The beach has black-sand and the waves of Echo Beach are strictly for advanced riders. Surfers dominate the scene by day. The beach is clean and well-kept, the result of the joint efforts among various surf schools and clubs along Canggu’s coast. They carry out routine beach cleanups. To sum up, Echo Beach serves as one of the island’s best surf spots, and a great place to chill with a laid-back vibe, great views, and delicious seafood.", and I kissed her left temple.

"Wow, awesome! Now you get me all excited....I can't wait to get there.....", she was content.

"Hahaha....that's the whole point...to get you stimulate.....", aku mengusik Q. Dia tiba-tiba mencubit lengan aku dan aku kenyit mata menahan pedih. "Ouch! garangnya dia....", I responded.

The whole night we didn't sleep. Q was so excited about the trip to Echo Beach. We stayed up and talked about my surfing experience. I showed her a few pictures from my Iphone.

"Wow, I wish I've known you much earlier.....", Q said. My dear Q, I wish the same thing too....aku berbisik di dalam hati.....

"And....., here we are...", I replied. "I couldn't ask for anything more....". Aku mengampirinya dan kedua belah tangan memekup lehernya sambil ibujari aku mengusap-usap telinganya. Q memejamkan matanya. Aku tenung sepuas-puasnya muka Q.....

She slightly open her eyes and slowly push me down and further down.....she is now on top of me. We were in that position for a few seconds. Then Q parted her sexy lips and I asked her, "Are you going to kiss me or not?", and she stuck out her tongue. I placed my hands slowly on her thighs, caressing upwards to her hips.

Her hands a moment ago was on my chest, now reached for my hair. She stroke my hair and ran her fingers along my face then neck. "Q......", I whispered.

She place a soft kiss on my lips and said, "You and I can predict what will happen next if I continued kissing you.....I only want to save my 'sexual preference' when I am married to you....". She got up and sat on my midriff and toss her hair back.

"And...., you want to marry me.....is that right......?'. I asked and my hands grabbed hold of her hands. We look directly into each other's eyes.

"Yes Imran I do.....hmmmm.....(aku memimikkan muka, jari aku letak di dagu seolah-olah mengalami dejavu...manakala tangan sebelah mengcekak pinggan), is that a proposal...?", she confirmed and giggled.

I tickled her until she fell onto my chest. I wrapped my arms around Q. "Kalau you setuju nak berkahwin dengan I, I sepuluh kali ganda nak kahwin dengan you.", aku confessed. And stayed like that for a minute or so.......

Masa sangat mencemburui kami..... when you are having fun.......

Chapter 22

Q stayed with me the whole night. We had dinner at the villa, spent a lot of time laughing and talking. I love being with her. We talk about our lives, the things we want to do, our future goals and aspirations and other things along that line.

"Since when did you started surfing?", I asked Q sambil menyuap sesudu Panna cotta.

"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to lie to you.....well my first experience was 10 years ago. Cuma the opportunity didn't arise like right now, where I am.....beautiful beach and beautiful waves here. Selalu kalau pergi holiday, it's all about sight seeing and shopping....jarang I get to enjoy what I like to do.....", Q menjawab.

"Yes, I know what you mean.....There’s no greater feeling than surfing and that feeling of being part of the ocean, really riding on top of the world. The freedom, adventure and creativity all rolled into one. It’s easy to see why surfers love surfing so much and I also love teaching newbies to surf so they can experience that joy.", I expressed my passion about surfing.

Then Q added, "Once you surf, it’s about the next wave you’re going to catch, because you always want more, like a drug. It can be a great one you brag about, a frustrating one you missed, an amazing one no one saw but you tell everyone and they believe you.". And we laughed.

"Yeah....., you are absolutely right. It’s like sex: you can do it over and over, and it’s always new, you always look forward to the next set, even if the previous was great. You never go home saying you’ve had enough, mentally. You may be tired, sore, busy or tied up with work, but you always, always look forward to it.", I replied.

Q smiled in embarrassment. I saw her face flushed red. She looked the other way when she saw me staring at her. 

"Have you exercise your sexual preference with any significant other?", I bluntly asked her. 

She looked at me and laughed, "Must you know? And that line of question..., it's supposed to be polite?". 

She is smart and beautiful in every way. She carries herself well and I can't imagine being with someone else. "Well, since we are all about being open with each other.....that is if you wanna share.....", I answered. 

"I am not ready to give you an exposé of my sexual life....what about you? I am pretty sure you keep a list of girls you've slept with....", Q jawab sinis. She leans closer and looks deep into my eyes. She was flirting with me.....

"Me? Ouch...macam perli I saja...?", aku bertanya. She giggled  "Do I look like a womanizer? Frankly speaking, I am a simple guy. For me love or cinta kepada seseorang hanya sekali dalam hidup. I thought I had it once, a long time ago....unfortunately it did not workout the way I planned. Salah I sendiri. That was the only serious relationship I had. Other than that,...yeah I do go out with other women on and off but nothing serious. Maybe I belum jumpa yang sesuai dengan jiwa I....Sleeping around.....? Nope. Flirting around? Yes....", I explained to Q as I stroke her hair back which almost covered her face when she looked down to her feet. 

"What about you? Do you have anyone special?", I wanted to know from Q.

"Yes....", Q replied and she kept silent.

"What do you mean by Yes?", I asked and I ran my fingers on her left cheek.

"Scared you didn't I?", she was testing me. Naughty. I had to pinch her nose...."Ouch!", she squeak. 

"No.....I am not seeing any special man, if that's what you want to know,.....until now.....", and she gave a soft smile. I wanna kiss her right now.....those lips of hers really turn me on......

"Are you listening what I'm saying.....?", terkejut aku. "Yes, yes I am......go on....", I replied.

"I lead a boring life. Mainly it revolves around my work, and family. I have told you before, only Kasyaff saja lelaki yang I percaya dan boleh harap. Nothing exciting.....no love life, no special guy in my life, not much night life and sex is totally out of the question. I value any free time I can find by hanging out with my girlfriends. Coffee, High Tea, clubbing on Saturday nights and sometimes slumber party with Juan and Khai.", she answered. I know she was nervous but I gently took her hands and kissed them, one at the time. My response caught her by surprise.

"What was that for...?", she asked.

"Nothing.......I just feel like kissing your hands. Is that a crime?", I was testing her reaction with a question.

"Tak lah sampai macam tu.....I like how you make me feel..", she replied and our fingers interlocked. I felt we have a deep, caring relationship as a couple. In other words we are comfortable being open and honest with each other.

"And how do I make you feel....?", I would like to hear in her own words.

Q stood up and walked to the balcony facing the ocean. I followed her from behind and wrapped my arms around her shoulders. The charcoal black night sky decorate with sparkling stars filling the empty spaces in the dark sky. I stared up at the the sky and studied the silver glow of the moon. Then I heard she took a deep breathe.

"Imran, we are having such an intimate conversation tonight. I feel like you know me well, inside and out. You make me feel so good about myself....", and Q turn to look at me. "I'm falling in love  with you, Imran....", and she rested her head on my chest. There is nothing more I want to hear from Q. My spontaneous reaction was to hold her in my arms and never letting her go. "Please don't ever stopped loving me Q........I love you so much....... ", I whispered closed to her ears and kissed her forehead.

Chapter 21

As I stall or slow my speed on the surfboard, I jumped into the ocean and walked towards the beach. Duff and his friends applaud at me. They started whisling and were loud. I gave a bow to shut them up and as I passed by them, each and everyone of them gave a high five. "You're a real wahine!", Duff shouted excitedly. Wahine is a female surfer.

Imran arrived soon after I did and he came running. "What did you think you were doing? You went for the wedge? You're crazy?", he scream at me.

Duff who was standing there said, "Hey man....cool it...she did amazing....she's a wahine!".

"Man..... I am not sure why is he mad at me....what did I do?", I replied. I saw Imran threw his surfboard on the beach and walked over to me.

"Duff, please give us some privacy....", and Duff took off with his surfboard to the ocean.

"Q....., what were you trying to prove....?", Imran asked as he wiped off the seawater on his face.

"Nothing.....! I was surfing. That's what people do here. What's wrong with that Imran?", I detest. I shoved his shoulder. I saw Juan and Khai came running.

"Hey guys, what's going on.....", Juan bertanya. Khai pulak terpinga-pinga.

"It was a dangerous maneuver. She could hurt herself...", Imran protest. Khai tried to comfort Imran.

"Imran, Q has been surfing since she was 15 years old. She is very good at what she does....", Khai said. Imran was surprised.....

"Good? Good? Then why the hell she lied and said she had only surf once...?", Imran asked back.

"Q memang macam tu.....she knows how much you love surfing so she prefers not to boast about her skills. You kena faham tu Imran. Dia bukan jenis yang menunjuk-nunjuk.", explained Khai selamba.

"But......", Imran seem regretted his action. He looked at me.....

"I wanna go back to our villa. I am not sure if I wanna be here anymore....you guys coming?", aku mula melangkah untuk meninggalkan pantai itu tapi dihalang oleh Imran....

"Q, please don't go.....I'm really sorry....", he apologized....."Okay maybe I over reacted. I shouldn't have raised my voice at you. Q, please don't leave.", Imran grabbed hold of my arm.

"Imran just let go. Give her some space....", said Juan.

But Imran still held my arm. "Q, if you really want to go, tell me. I'll let go of you......", Imran said. Aku serba salah. I can just walked away and never look back but what would it be to our relationship. I am still trying to decide......

"Q, cepatlah......", Juan was persistent. She came closer to me.

"Let go of my arm, Imran...'", I insisted. And instantly, Imran let go of me.....he grabbed his surf board and ran to the ocean....I stood there and watch him disappear under the waves.

Imran........I called him.....in my heart.......I watched him walk away knowing I may not see him again. I felt like a thousand daggers were being thrust into my chest and twisted. My breath came in short, painful gasps that left me dizzy and nauseated.

I struggled with the urge to run after him but my feet felt like they were encased in the cement and my heart pounded in my chest. Why is this happening to me? What could I have done differently?

Deep down I knew that the hurt would eventually disappear, but at that moment I couldn't fathom my life without him in it. I spiraled downward into a dark depression of thoughts...

"Q, apa tunggu lagi.....cepatlah.....", Khai mengajak aku. Aku berjalan menuju ke tangga ke Villa Imran sambil memaling ke arah Imran.......

Why did I acted so foolish? I am so sorry Q I hurt your feelings. She should have spoke the truth. Alright if she wants some space...., I'll give her space. If I happened to run into her just walk past her and pretend she is not there. Am I being childish here?

That day I did not try to contact Q and she didn't either....rasa menyesal melepaskan Q pagi tadi. "Oh.....Q, I missed you.....", bisik Imran sambil mengosok-gosokkan kepalanya. "Aduh naik gila aku dibuatnya. Tak boleh jadi ni.....". Serba serbi aku rasa tak kena hari ini.

I grabbed my surfboard again return to the beach that evening. Aku cuba untuk menenangkan fikiran aku.

When I paddle back to the beach, aku terlihat seolah-olah bayang Q berdiri di tepi pantai. Kayuhan aku semakin laju dan deras. Aku mahu segera sampai ke pantai......

Yes, I was not dreaming. It was Q. I walked towards her and stood still. Dia tersenyum memandang aku......bagai nak luruh jantung aku. Hendak saja aku merangkul dan memeluk dia. Tapi aku harus bersikap 'cool' dalam situasi ini. To pretend she's not there.....and walk away.....? That's foolish of me.......

"Hi.....", she said. I did not react but just stood in front of her. "Imran, I tak bermaksud untuk meninggalkan you siang tadi. I had a choice to make. Petang ini I pulang ke sini dengan harapan you boleh memaafkan I?", she explained her presence.

"Maafkan Q, Imran......I rasa you lebih faham dan bersikap rational with my decision to leave this morning.", she elaborated further.

"I understood....very well. And how are your friends? Are they mad at me?", aku bertanya dan bergerak menghampirinya.

"They are fine....and they are not mad at you. By the way, they said Hi........", Q said as she looked at me. I took her hand and she held tight. I bent down a little and nuzzle my nose against her nose. She fell right into my arms.

Chapter 20

As I sat there and enjoyed the solitude, I closed my eyes and I hear the soothing sound of the waves brushing against the pebbles.  There was a slight breeze that kept brushing strands of my hair right on to my face but I didn't mind at all. I moved the hair out my face, then I got some sand in my mouth and it doesn't bother me.

"Mak Jah told me something which does make sense, right after you left my house. She said I have found the right lady and I should not waste my time any more. She likes you a lot. I belief in her observation. Mak Jah is not only my housekeeper but also my 'guidance counselor'.......", and Imran laughed.

"She said I've changed since I met you. Less nights out partying. She asked me to ask you hand in marriage. But I told her I want Q to accept me for who I am.....and marriage will only happened when Q is ready.". Imran recounted.

I smiled and said, "Wow that was intense. We covered pretty heavy stuff......but I am glad we had this talk. A relief, for me.....".

"What time is it?", I asked Imran. He looked at his watch.

"Almost 5:30 a.m.", He replied.

"Kita tak tidur rupanya....", I said.

"Tak mengantukkan......", he replied and I laughed.

"I like you a lot. You give me space to breathe and no pressure what so ever.....", I told him how I felt about him.

"I learn from my mistakes. I tak mahu pisang berbuah dua kali.You are very important to me, Q and I do not want to lose you.....", he uttered. "Anyway, sunrise tak lama lagi. You wanna go for a surf?" It was an invitation I can't refuse.

"Sure, why not....I'll take up on your challenge......", I said to him with confident.

"Wow,......that's my girl....come on (he pulled me up from the sand) we'll go back to the villa, changed and be back here in 20 minutes.....", and it is his plan.

"Hmmm......I will wake up the girls. You (pointing at at).....supposed to meet Duff. Remember?......", I reminded him.

"Darn it......that's right.....(as we walked fast to the stairs leading to the hotel), I'll meet you at the beach in about half an hour time.....don't start without me...!", and we headed to our separated bedroom.

I went to the girls' room and woke Juan first. She said she wanted to see the sunrise. "Juan, wake up....it's almost sunrise.....", aku mengerak-gerakkan badannya. "Juan bangunla.....", aku mengejutnya lagi.....

"Apa? Sunrise?", Juan terpinga-pinga....

"Last night you said, you wanted to watch the sunrise....so wake up. I'm going surfing with Imran and Duff. Remember Duff? You nak pergi tak?", aku cube menarik perhatian dia dengan kehadiran Duff.

"Okay, okay, okay,.....I'm up. Khai wake up....we're going surfing pagi ni....", Juan mengejutkan Khai.

"I have to go. I have a challenge to win......", I said and left their room in a dash.

"Hoi perempuan......, apa kau cakap ni? Challenge? Challenge apa pulak ni....", Juan uttered.

Credit to chakasmoothjazz and You Tube

Smile, like a happy child

Feelin` safe in your embrace

Shine, sunshine

Kiss you warmly on your face

This is the place where I am free

There is no where else I`d rather be

[Chorus]

Than here in your arms

Hypnotised by your charms

Every touch means so much

Boy, you blow my mind

I love what you do for me

(I love what you do, I love what you do)

What you do for me, baby

Close your eyes

And I`ll creep into your dreams

Through your mind, weave a secret on your soul

All that you dream, I`m dreamin` too

No one else could take the place of you

(I want to be)

[Chorus]

I love what you do for me

Close to you`s where I want to be

Baby, baby, baby, baby (Oh)

[Chorus]

When I arrived, Imran and Duff arrived at about the same time. Duff brought along a few of his friends as well.

I joined Imran and he passed me a surf board. Without hesitation with the surf board in one arm, I did not waste any time and ran towards the ocean. I got on top the surf board and start peddling a head.

"Q, wait.....", I turned and looked at Imran. Then he shouted, "Hope you paddle your ass hard enough to catch the waves." And I gave him a thumbs up.

Chapter 19

We went down stairs and saw Juan and Khai lazing on the sundeck wooden chair. "I think we better make a move....", I said to Imran. "Kesian dia orang. Mesti penat sangat...

"Sayang, it's late. There are plenty of beds here. Why don't you and your friends stay here tonight...", Imran suggested.

"Ya la Q, penat lah...kalau dapat tidur sini, dapat aku tengok sunrise pagi nanti....", pujuk Juan. Dia mengampiri aku. "You guys can spend more time getting know each other under our supervision....", Juan tergelak....

"Pandailah korang ni....Khai are you alright with the new arrangements?", aku ingin mendapatkan kepastian Khai.

"Susah-susahkan you saja Imran.....tapi kalau you insist, kami agree....", Khai replied dan gelak tersipi-sipu.

"I insist..........there....it's a done deal. You ladies put a night here.", Imran insisted. "Come ladies I'll show you to your bedroom.", and he lead the way.

Half an hour later, once Khai and Juan decided to share a bed, I told them that I will be up on the terrace.

"Jaga diri baik-baik....sayang.....", said Juan sempat dia memerli aku sambil menguap. Aku perhatikan Khai yang sudah lena. Entah apa agaknya yang dimimpikannya.

"Ok Juan....nite......", I said.

I stepped out of the room and saw Imran standing by the pool. I stood next to him. I gently slip my arms around his waist. He wrapped his arm around me and we stood watching the infinity pool.

"Q.....", he called. I looked up at him and he kissed my lips. Aku memejamkan mata untuk menikmati kucupannya. Lembut dan bersahaja. But it's not enough. I leaned closer offering my lips to him....He kissed me and the world fell away. It was slow and soft, comforting in ways that words would never be. His hand rested below my ear, his thumb caressing my cheek as our breaths mingled. I ran my fingers down his spine, pulling him closer until there was no space left between us and I could feel the beating of his heart against my chest. After a few seconds, I pull back.....

"Imran, I have something I wanna tell you.", I said.

"Yeah, sure....", he replied and we started to walk towards a narrow steps leading to the beach. We found a nice spot and sat on the beach.

"Q hanya anak angkat Tan Sri yang dia bela dari kecil. My father and Tan Sri built up an architect firm but after the business flourished and stable, Tan Sri decided he wants to set up his own practice.  Then he set up his own firm. After Tan Sri left, another partner was brought in. Without the knowledge of my father, the new partner has been mishandling funds. My father heard about his business going for foreclosure, he and my mom booked a flight back to Malaysia. Unfortunately their plane crashed and they both died. Tan Sri was so upset and blamed himself. He said none of this would happened if he didn't leave the firm. He asked my grandparents if he can raised me as his own. Puan Sri was thrilled. They have 3 sons and to have a baby girl is like a precious gift from God. I was barely 15 months old. Mommy, Puan Sri raised me just like her own. They never made any distinction between me and their flesh and blood. I was blessed to have them as a parent. They wanted me to have the best of everything and they raised me right.", aku berhenti and looked at Imran.

"I am so sorry for your lost, Q....", Imran sat closer to me.

"It's alright. It's not your fault. I thought you should know about myself.", I replied.

"How did you know you were adopted, if you don't mind me asking?", Imran asked.

"Well, my parents,....I mean Tan Sri and Puan Sri never hid the truth from me. Once a month they will take me to visit my maternal grandparents. They did not want me to lose contact with my relatives. I stopped visiting after they passed away. When I was 15 my adopted parents told me the history and I understood then as I understood now....what they did was because they loved me so very much. I love them, too. Dia oranglah tempat I bergantung hidup. I was the closest with Abang Ngah, Kasyaff. He was looking for a playmate.We were 3 years apart.  And he adored me when I came to live with them. He will spend any free time he had after he finishes his school work to play with me.", I explained on. Imran just sat next to me and listened quietly.

"We were inseparable. Sekolah sama, university pun sama....there was one time he wanted Mommy to make him a pair of baju melayu using the same material as mine. And he got what he wanted....hahahaha.....with pink flowers and all.....He took me under his wings. He was my protector. Back then, I didn't need another guy in my life because Abang Ngah has always been there. He was my date to the prom, thought me how to drive, scanned any guy I went out with and was the only one who will be there to comfort me whenever I get dumped.", I laughed bila teringat cerita lama.

"Daddy wants me to work for his firm. I said I'm not ready. I got a job, the one I have now, and I love it very much. Once in a while I will drop by his office to help out with 'special' work on a consultant fee.", I smiled.

"And that was how we met....", Imran recalled. I smiled again and looked at him. He was already looking at me, smiling. "It was the best feeling....Q, ....when I saw you that day".

"I nak you understand sepekara, I hanya menunpang kasih sayang mereka. I try to be the a good daughter but  macamana besar pengorbanan I lakukan, mungkin tak dapat membalas jasa mereka yang menatang I macam minyak yang penuh. Then I met you. You give me a path to find who I really am......", I said and smiled. I face the open sea.