From the corner of my eyes I saw a broad figure....., oh no....it's Mak Jah. I looked down in embarrassment and started to cry....sambil badan aku tersengguk-sengguk menahan tangisanku.
Imran squat down and hold my arms. "It's alright.....kita masuk dulu ya....", pujuk Imran. I nodded and slowly stepped out of the car. He held me close to his body.
"Hamid, mari masuk. Mak Jah sudah sedia bilik tetamu untuk awak....awak rehatlah di sini malam ni...", Imran menjemput Hamid masuk. Terkedu aku mendengar.
"Mari Hamid.....Mak Jah tunjukkan biliknya.....boleh berehat dan solat....dah nak masuk Maghrib ni.....". Hamid stepped into the house. Imran and I followed from behind.
Sampai saja ke ruang tamu, aku terjelepuk di atas sofa. Malu...? Hmmm....jangan cakapla.....I want another face if I was given a choice. Tak terbayang lagi dalam fikiran ni....my stupidity in short. I made Imran worried. I was rude towards Hamid. I was foolish...!
Imran handed me a glass of water....Here drink up...", he said and I took it. I looked at him. I'd be a fool if I lose him. "Imran.....? I minta maaf....I was being childish....", aku berkata.
"Q..., drink up....forget about it....the important thing is that you are fine..alright.....", he said as he held my hands. " You need a good rest. You can have my room." Mak Jah walked towards us. " Mari Q, Mak Jah tunjukkan bilik Imran. Q mandi dan kita solat sama-sama ya....", pujuknya.
Aku memandang Imran. Imran smiled and nodded.....aku bingkas bangun dan mengikut Mak Jah yang sudah laju di depan.
Masuk saja ke dalam bilik Imran, aku duduk di atas katil Imran. Aku memandang keliling....kemas...ada office corner.....and picture of me semasa kami di Bali on his bedside table. Aku tersenyum....
Selesai mandi and menukar pakaian, kami solat Maghrib yang di imamkan oleh suami Mak Jah. Kemudian kami berkumpul dan membaca surah Yassin. Merdu suara Imran membaca surah dari Al-Quran. Tenang aku rasa.....once in a while I steal glances at him.......but he did not look back. He was genuine to His words and full of concentration. Kemudian kami akhiri dengan solat Isyak.
Selesai sembahyang, aku mengekori Mak Jah ke dapur. Dia mengarah aku membawa lauk dan nasi di bawah tudung saji ke ruang makan. "Maaf ya Q, lambat pulak kita makan malam ni. Mak Jah ingat tadi lepas Maghrib boleh hidang. Tak sangka pulak Imran nak baca Yassin. Mesti Q lapar....", jelas Mak Jah. Aku senyum.
"Tak pa Mak Jah, saya tak lapar sangat....", aku menjawab.
"Ish....tahan makan la ni.....apa orang putih cakap?.....Diet? Haaaa....Q diet kan?", she made an assumption about my eating habits.
"Tak Mak Jah, saya tak diet cuma kurang selera saja. Sejak akhir-akhir ni fikiran saya agak berserabut sikit.......macam-macam hal berlaku.....sedikit sebanyak mengganggu setiap keputusan saya.....,", aku berkongsi dengan Mak Jah. Perhaps third party opinion will come handy. So, I lifted the tray, "Q bawak makanan ni keluar dulu ya.....", dan berlalu pergi.
"Hmmm....iyalah...", I heard she replied.
Semasa makan kami tidak banyak bercakap. Aku lebih banyak melayan perasaan aku sendiri....memikirkan jalan cerita yang logik untuk dibentangkan kepada Imran bila aku di soal siasat. Haih......
Selesai makan malam, before Hamid resume to the guestroom. "Bro Imran, saya datang dengan Q dan saya ada tanggungjawab yang harus saya selesaikan. Esok saya sendiri yang akan hantar Q balik...Bro, take your time...saya harap semua selesai dengan baik. Selamat malam dan Assalamualaikum...", he said and glanced at me before leaving the dining area. Waalaikumsalam.....
While leaning against the back of the sofa, Imran held his hands out and reached my hands. I looked down to the floor. Jari jemari aku diramasnya dengan kemas. He slightly pull my hands and I stepped closer towards him. "How are you feeling?.....much better?", he asked.
"Yes.", I replied and looked up at him.
“I made a bad decision……I was way ahead of reality….and I just lost it…..”, I confessed and looked deep into his eyes.
"About what Q. I am feeling that I did something wrong here.....you don't answer my calls......you didn't reply to any of my messages.........", he was very calm. Aku melepaskan tangan aku dari genggaman Imran. I took a step closer and said, " Apa yang you lakukan.....sakit sangat....". I took a few step back.
"And how do you assume I did that...?", Imran sounded firm. He stood straight up and took a few steps forward. Aku siap sedia untuk berundur tetapi lagi aku undur, Imran moves closer and closer. I realized I had no where to go. My back was against the wall......
He lifted both hands and placed them on the wall, left and right of me. When I lift my face, Imran was already staring at me. I feel self-conscious I was unable to look away when our eyes met.
"Ehemm....". Suara Mak Jah. Imran memandang ke arah Mak Jah lantas menurunkan tangannya. Aku mengambil kesempatan untuk beralih kedudukan ke arah ruang tamu. "Imran, Mak Jah nak balik sekejap....anak Mak Jah baru sampai dari Perlis. Nanti Mak Jah datang balik ya...."
"Baiklah Mak Jah....tidur sini ya malam ni....", he replied.
"Iya.....Imran jangan apa-apa kan anak dara orang....cakap baik-baik. Semua perkara boleh diselesaikan kalau masing-masing nak bertolak ansur. Pak Mat kamu ada kat luar ni....", she advised.
Aku hanya tunduk. Segan sangat dengan Mak Jah.....Imran listened and nodded at the same time. "Insya Allah, Mak Jah...I will...", he said and turn to look at me.
I looked away from Imran. I do not want to see his facial expression. I wish Mak Jah didn't have to go. I heard the main door was closed but not locked....
Imran walked over and sat next to me. "Q, what happened?", he asked.
"Apa yang you buat....sangat sakit...", I squint my eyes and pointed at him. But I should have known better. I was immature.....I made an assumption and I made my own conclusion that Imran was unfaithful to me.
"Tell me then......let's clear the air....", he slightly raised his voice. "Q......".
I was cool and composed.
"I thought I saw a guy yesterday at a book store who looks exactly like you. I got upset when I saw 'the guy' flirting with a lady friend......I think 'the guy ' caught me staring at him. He had a shock look on his face. I was pretty sure it was you so I went bananas....and that's the whole story.", I explained. "But I was wrong....I tak sepatutnya menghukum you sebegini tanpa usul periksa.", I confessed.
"I see.....why didn't you approached 'the guy'? Say hello perhaps? Instead you left......did you know that the guy ran after you but you just vanished", he said bluntly.
I was surprised by his response. "No, no disrespect, I didn't want to......I was late. I had a date with Khai that evening. That's why I left....", I told the truth. Well, at least for the most part of it......
He lift and folded his legs on the sofa. "SO you are upset because you thought I was seeing someone else....", he summarized. Then he continued,"...yes, I was at the book store. I was with Kristin, a good friend and we go back during our primary school in Australia. She happened to be in town and I took her around KLCC and Pavillion.", sounding sincere.
He landed his right hand on my left thigh. Aku biarkan saja. "You are jealous.........aren't you....?', he touched my hair. Aku mengelak....
"Nooooo.....Me.....? Jealous....? .....All I said that I was wrong.....? I tak sepaptutnya membuat my own conclusion", I defended myself.
Imran merapati aku. There is no where to escape. No where to run. No more lies........"Mostly I was upset because you did not call me after you left my place the other day and then I saw you with someone else.....just a wee bit jealous,........there I've said it........you're happy....?!?", aku menahan dada Imran dengan kedua tangan aku.
"Stop...! You're way too close.....", sambil memalingkan muka ke arah kananku. "Even you pun teramat jealous bila you dengar I and Abang Ngah bertunangkan...? Inikan I.......whom you did not contact after you left my place.....nothing...!", aku menghalang Imran.
Imran smiled and followed by a small giggle. He stood up and lifted my hands. I did not resist as I stood up. He placed my hands on his hips.
His hands was on my shoulders, "We have a lot to learn from each other.", he said gently. "I never meant to hide anything from you.....I confronted you about your relationship with Kasyaff. Didn't I?".
"Oh and you think it's funny...? at my expense....?", I let go of my hands and walked away.
Imran followed me from behind. I stopped and turned. Imran was so close to me....."I was mean to you. Rude to Hamid. I am so in despicable....", and at that exact moment he tilted my chin softly. He looked down and kissed me on the lips.
Our lips were lock. My head shift from left to right and it felt so heavy. My eyes clenched shut. Savoring the moment. I slowly lift my arms and wrapped them around his neck. His lips are so warm. His hands slide down my arms and pulling me closer to him. Caressing my arms gently. I could smell his cologne. His kisses gave me body tremors. Before I knew it, I was kissing him back. Then, I sense that he lifted his lips, "Q....I missed you so much....", he whispered. I opened my eyes.....
"Imran...,", I said but he replied, "Shhhh.......".
He took my hands and lead me back to the sofa. He planted a soft kiss on my lips. I sat next to him.
"Listen......I will never leave you or you have forgotten...? You tetap jadi yang tersayang for me. This misunderstanding,....I minta maaf if I've hurt your feelings.", he apologized.
"Baiklah Mak Jah....tidur sini ya malam ni....", he replied.
"Iya.....Imran jangan apa-apa kan anak dara orang....cakap baik-baik. Semua perkara boleh diselesaikan kalau masing-masing nak bertolak ansur. Pak Mat kamu ada kat luar ni....", she advised.
Aku hanya tunduk. Segan sangat dengan Mak Jah.....Imran listened and nodded at the same time. "Insya Allah, Mak Jah...I will...", he said and turn to look at me.
I looked away from Imran. I do not want to see his facial expression. I wish Mak Jah didn't have to go. I heard the main door was closed but not locked....
Imran walked over and sat next to me. "Q, what happened?", he asked.
How could I be angry at him for too long…..a surfer boy good looks. His tanned
skin and light brown eyes, how muscular his shoulders were, and how lush his
lips looked. My gaze slips lower, to the rest of his body lalu menelan air liur…..gulp! He is so different tonight.
What was I thinking?
Credit to You Tube and Jackandthewilee
"Apa yang you buat....sangat sakit...", I squint my eyes and pointed at him. But I should have known better. I was immature.....I made an assumption and I made my own conclusion that Imran was unfaithful to me.
"Tell me then......let's clear the air....", he slightly raised his voice. "Q......".
I was cool and composed.
"I thought I saw a guy yesterday at a book store who looks exactly like you. I got upset when I saw 'the guy' flirting with a lady friend......I think 'the guy ' caught me staring at him. He had a shock look on his face. I was pretty sure it was you so I went bananas....and that's the whole story.", I explained. "But I was wrong....I tak sepatutnya menghukum you sebegini tanpa usul periksa.", I confessed.
"I see.....why didn't you approached 'the guy'? Say hello perhaps? Instead you left......did you know that the guy ran after you but you just vanished", he said bluntly.
I was surprised by his response. "No, no disrespect, I didn't want to......I was late. I had a date with Khai that evening. That's why I left....", I told the truth. Well, at least for the most part of it......
He lift and folded his legs on the sofa. "SO you are upset because you thought I was seeing someone else....", he summarized. Then he continued,"...yes, I was at the book store. I was with Kristin, a good friend and we go back during our primary school in Australia. She happened to be in town and I took her around KLCC and Pavillion.", sounding sincere.
He landed his right hand on my left thigh. Aku biarkan saja. "You are jealous.........aren't you....?', he touched my hair. Aku mengelak....
"Nooooo.....Me.....? Jealous....? .....All I said that I was wrong.....? I tak sepaptutnya membuat my own conclusion", I defended myself.
Imran merapati aku. There is no where to escape. No where to run. No more lies........"Mostly I was upset because you did not call me after you left my place the other day and then I saw you with someone else.....just a wee bit jealous,........there I've said it........you're happy....?!?", aku menahan dada Imran dengan kedua tangan aku.
"Stop...! You're way too close.....", sambil memalingkan muka ke arah kananku. "Even you pun teramat jealous bila you dengar I and Abang Ngah bertunangkan...? Inikan I.......whom you did not contact after you left my place.....nothing...!", aku menghalang Imran.
Imran smiled and followed by a small giggle. He stood up and lifted my hands. I did not resist as I stood up. He placed my hands on his hips.
His hands was on my shoulders, "We have a lot to learn from each other.", he said gently. "I never meant to hide anything from you.....I confronted you about your relationship with Kasyaff. Didn't I?".
"Oh and you think it's funny...? at my expense....?", I let go of my hands and walked away.
Imran followed me from behind. I stopped and turned. Imran was so close to me....."I was mean to you. Rude to Hamid. I am so in despicable....", and at that exact moment he tilted my chin softly. He looked down and kissed me on the lips.
Our lips were lock. My head shift from left to right and it felt so heavy. My eyes clenched shut. Savoring the moment. I slowly lift my arms and wrapped them around his neck. His lips are so warm. His hands slide down my arms and pulling me closer to him. Caressing my arms gently. I could smell his cologne. His kisses gave me body tremors. Before I knew it, I was kissing him back. Then, I sense that he lifted his lips, "Q....I missed you so much....", he whispered. I opened my eyes.....
"Imran...,", I said but he replied, "Shhhh.......".
He took my hands and lead me back to the sofa. He planted a soft kiss on my lips. I sat next to him.
"Listen......I will never leave you or you have forgotten...? You tetap jadi yang tersayang for me. This misunderstanding,....I minta maaf if I've hurt your feelings.", he apologized.
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