"You're gonna be alright...?", he asked.
Aku maintain my coolness and replied, "Yeah I'll be okay. I live near by so....", as I raised my shoulder.
"Alright then.....you better go....ohh, and by the way can I call you tomorrow?", he popped a question.
Surprised as I was, "Suuuuree.....why not...". Aku jawab dengan nada sindir. I started my car engine. I looked at him one last time.
"Good night Emir. Sweet dreams....", I said. I released my hand break and accelerate.
Kebas rasanya pipi aku. Aku menepuk beberapa kali kedua belah pipi seperti untuk menyedarkan diri ini dari mimpi. Aku ketawa mentertawakan diri sendiri. Strange feeling.....I can feel a tingling sensation at the back of my neck.
Walked into my bedroom and fall back on the bed. "Emir....Emir....Emir....", namanya terungkap dari bibir aku. I closed my eyes and thought of his fingers running down my hair. Aku tersenyum sendirian lagi. Entah apa yang aku berangan.....
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Aku bersiap-siap untuk tidur bila mobile phone aku berdering. Lantas aku mengiring untuk memetik suis lampu meja katil. I grabbed my mobile phone and the screen displayed private number. Should I answer??
"Hello....", lalu senyap.
"Hi Q......?"
"Emir.....? Is that you....?". It sounded very much like Emir. I was a bit surprised as I did not expect him to call me this soon and this time of the night. Or rather did not expect him to call me at all.....
"I can't get you off my mind tonight......", he said.
Aku terdiam....Emir juga diam....I was stunned. "Oh!?", I responded. "Is that a title of a song....?". I was trying to divert the conversation before I start thinking what it could really meant.
Emir blasted a huge laugh....I was not happy by his response. "What's so funny....? It is a title of a song.....right?", I pretended to play dumb and humor him a little bit more. Then I sang to him, "Life is just a lonely highway,....Kravitz. Lenny Kravitz right...?".
"Nope, it is not a title of a song, love......Listen, I am being serious. I can't get you off my mind.", he took a deep breathe.
"Q, the more I get to know you, the more I like you. Betul-betul reeeally like you.". He sounded sincere and nothing is forcing him to say those words. He was direct. Straight to the point.
"Really....?:. Aku pula menarik nafas panas perlahan-lahan dan menghembus keluar melalui mulut. "I like you too, as a friend lah.....", I responded. Aku tutup lampu katil aku. And spoke to him in the darken room.
"Kawan saja.....kalau lebih dari itu tak boleh ke....?", such a blunt question. I felt as though lightning struck straight to my heart. Jantung aku berdegup laju.
"You pun tahu my situation. I'm attached. You juga cakap you are not looking around. You seem to change your woman every time I jumpa you. Kat luar sana,......you can get any woman you want. I am not the right one for you. Getting a woman is not a problem for you right? So, why do you want to commit yourself into another relationship? I jenis cemburu buta....I want one man one woman, for myself sahaja. I am not good at sharing. And I don't see that with you....and your life style....hmmmm.....let's put it this way......Emir we are not compatible. Totally the opposite....", I explained dengan nada bergurau. I hope he understood that I am rejecting his proposal gently.
I continue on."From the time I kenal you semasa di dalam train ke Alor Setar hingga saat ini....I tak dapat membaca you, and fikiran you. You are such an unpredictable kind of guy.", aku berterus terang. "I don't really know what to expect from you. One minute you're flirty then you can just be mean the next minute. Sometimes you excite me but other times you scare me. I am happy at this my point in life. I tak dapat memenuhi permintaan you. I just don't want to be hurt over and over again by someone like your type. Carilah perempuan yang sealiran dengan you. Yang same twisted mind like yours. And it's not me, Emir....". Aku mendiamkan diri hoping to hear him bagged.
"Your type.....? Wow.....coming from you, that hurts...", he replied. "Couldn't you find a little space in you heart to give me one last chance? That's all I'm asking...", he pleaded.
"Emir....wait a minute...bukan ke you cakap you wanna call tomorrow.........", I continued.
"Q dah tomorrow dah....look at the time.....", he replied. "But, listen....I want to meet you again.....kali ni betul-betul last time....okay.....", he pleaded.
Aku tergelak...., "You ni macam budak-budak bercinta...".
"One dinner.....please....let's give ourselves a chance. Get to know each other....hmmm? Okay...if thing doesn't workout we call quits all this shenanigans. You go on with your life. I tak akan ganggu you lagi....", he was so persistent.
"You ni suka paksalah. I tak suka macam ini tau.....(aku mendiamkan diri dan berfikir) alright Emir, one dinner and that's it....", I agreed.
"Thank you Q. I'll pick you up....", belum habis dia bercakap I cut him off...
"No let's meet there....", I said. I do not want to be caught dead with him on his big bike.
"Ok, I'm fine with that and meet you 8 pm Eastin PJ.", dia menetapkan jam dan lokasi.
"Ok....,you got what you want. Can I go to sleep now....?", suara aku mula mengambarkan yang aku amat mengantuk.
"Sure, sure.....night Q...", he said.
"Night Emir.....", I replied and hung up.
A few seconds later my mobile phone buzzed....
Emir
<Kalau I tak cuba I tak akan tahu...........💘💘>
I giggled. Hah! Ada hati dia nak mengurat aku....
Me <Hey that's me. When was this? You curi-curi ambil photo I?>
Emir <I tak dapat tengok orangnya. Dapat tengok gambar pun jadilah....>
Emir <Looking forward seeing you tomorrow>
Emir <Ooppsss....not tomorrow, tonight!💗>
Me <😊 yes,...yes.....I will see you there>
Sambil memejamkan mata, aku memeluk handphone. Aku tersenyum puas. I am falling for this guy, which is ridiculous!. What is the attraction with Emir? Is it because dia pandai memujuk dan pandai membuat aku cair with his charm? Atau that fighting spirit in him? He is not the typical romantic guy who will court to get you and when he succeeded the next stage in life will be bland because there is nothing much to look forward......Or it's his confidence I cannot resist? He is content and comfortable where he is at.....nothing to prove to other people. It could also be Emir wild side that I find it very erotic. He can put a fight to test your limit. But when you are about to fall apart.....he will not let you crumble. He knows what he wants and he will go the full length to be at your side, through thick and thin.
Dan aku terlelap....Imran.....
Mata aku terbeliak. Imran!
Shit!
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