Chapter 19

We went down stairs and saw Juan and Khai lazing on the sundeck wooden chair. "I think we better make a move....", I said to Imran. "Kesian dia orang. Mesti penat sangat...

"Sayang, it's late. There are plenty of beds here. Why don't you and your friends stay here tonight...", Imran suggested.

"Ya la Q, penat lah...kalau dapat tidur sini, dapat aku tengok sunrise pagi nanti....", pujuk Juan. Dia mengampiri aku. "You guys can spend more time getting know each other under our supervision....", Juan tergelak....

"Pandailah korang ni....Khai are you alright with the new arrangements?", aku ingin mendapatkan kepastian Khai.

"Susah-susahkan you saja Imran.....tapi kalau you insist, kami agree....", Khai replied dan gelak tersipi-sipu.

"I insist..........there....it's a done deal. You ladies put a night here.", Imran insisted. "Come ladies I'll show you to your bedroom.", and he lead the way.

Half an hour later, once Khai and Juan decided to share a bed, I told them that I will be up on the terrace.

"Jaga diri baik-baik....sayang.....", said Juan sempat dia memerli aku sambil menguap. Aku perhatikan Khai yang sudah lena. Entah apa agaknya yang dimimpikannya.

"Ok Juan....nite......", I said.

I stepped out of the room and saw Imran standing by the pool. I stood next to him. I gently slip my arms around his waist. He wrapped his arm around me and we stood watching the infinity pool.

"Q.....", he called. I looked up at him and he kissed my lips. Aku memejamkan mata untuk menikmati kucupannya. Lembut dan bersahaja. But it's not enough. I leaned closer offering my lips to him....He kissed me and the world fell away. It was slow and soft, comforting in ways that words would never be. His hand rested below my ear, his thumb caressing my cheek as our breaths mingled. I ran my fingers down his spine, pulling him closer until there was no space left between us and I could feel the beating of his heart against my chest. After a few seconds, I pull back.....

"Imran, I have something I wanna tell you.", I said.

"Yeah, sure....", he replied and we started to walk towards a narrow steps leading to the beach. We found a nice spot and sat on the beach.

"Q hanya anak angkat Tan Sri yang dia bela dari kecil. My father and Tan Sri built up an architect firm but after the business flourished and stable, Tan Sri decided he wants to set up his own practice.  Then he set up his own firm. After Tan Sri left, another partner was brought in. Without the knowledge of my father, the new partner has been mishandling funds. My father heard about his business going for foreclosure, he and my mom booked a flight back to Malaysia. Unfortunately their plane crashed and they both died. Tan Sri was so upset and blamed himself. He said none of this would happened if he didn't leave the firm. He asked my grandparents if he can raised me as his own. Puan Sri was thrilled. They have 3 sons and to have a baby girl is like a precious gift from God. I was barely 15 months old. Mommy, Puan Sri raised me just like her own. They never made any distinction between me and their flesh and blood. I was blessed to have them as a parent. They wanted me to have the best of everything and they raised me right.", aku berhenti and looked at Imran.

"I am so sorry for your lost, Q....", Imran sat closer to me.

"It's alright. It's not your fault. I thought you should know about myself.", I replied.

"How did you know you were adopted, if you don't mind me asking?", Imran asked.

"Well, my parents,....I mean Tan Sri and Puan Sri never hid the truth from me. Once a month they will take me to visit my maternal grandparents. They did not want me to lose contact with my relatives. I stopped visiting after they passed away. When I was 15 my adopted parents told me the history and I understood then as I understood now....what they did was because they loved me so very much. I love them, too. Dia oranglah tempat I bergantung hidup. I was the closest with Abang Ngah, Kasyaff. He was looking for a playmate.We were 3 years apart.  And he adored me when I came to live with them. He will spend any free time he had after he finishes his school work to play with me.", I explained on. Imran just sat next to me and listened quietly.

"We were inseparable. Sekolah sama, university pun sama....there was one time he wanted Mommy to make him a pair of baju melayu using the same material as mine. And he got what he wanted....hahahaha.....with pink flowers and all.....He took me under his wings. He was my protector. Back then, I didn't need another guy in my life because Abang Ngah has always been there. He was my date to the prom, thought me how to drive, scanned any guy I went out with and was the only one who will be there to comfort me whenever I get dumped.", I laughed bila teringat cerita lama.

"Daddy wants me to work for his firm. I said I'm not ready. I got a job, the one I have now, and I love it very much. Once in a while I will drop by his office to help out with 'special' work on a consultant fee.", I smiled.

"And that was how we met....", Imran recalled. I smiled again and looked at him. He was already looking at me, smiling. "It was the best feeling....Q, ....when I saw you that day".

"I nak you understand sepekara, I hanya menunpang kasih sayang mereka. I try to be the a good daughter but  macamana besar pengorbanan I lakukan, mungkin tak dapat membalas jasa mereka yang menatang I macam minyak yang penuh. Then I met you. You give me a path to find who I really am......", I said and smiled. I face the open sea.

Chapter 18

My jaw almost drop when we reached his so call room....it was like a private villa.....then he invited us in. The entrance takes us to the ground floor with breath taking view of the ocean.

Wantilan Villas as it is written on the signage, designed to provide versatility and privacy. 

The ground floor has two Ocean Suite while the second floor, is a deluxe Ocean Suite. The hotel converted all three suites into a Villa during Imran’s stay here.  The suite comes with an open-air bathroom, separate toilet, shower, and double vanity. A private pool is located in front of the two suites on the ground floor.

The Deluxe Ocean Suite situated on the second floor has an airy bedroom, kitchenette, terrace with daybed and private dining area with majestic ocean views.  

I whispered to Khai, “This is not a room…this is like a royal chamber in paradise…..I think it’s a waste of money  paying something this expensive for a weekend stay….”. Khai agreed.

“Banyaknya duit dia?”, Khai asked. “What does he do for a living again?”

“Erkk, he said he’s an architect or something….”, I replied. Khai looked at me in disbelief. “What do you mean….something? You don’t even know what he does?”

“Well…., we haven’t gotten there. Maybe we learn more about each other while in Bali…..”, I said.

"Kalau kau tak nak tanya, nanti aku tanya.....biar aku interview dia.....", Khai  semacam tidak berpuas hati dengan sikap sambil lewa aku. "Nanti dia jual kau kat drug dealer baru padan muka kau. Bapak kau dah kaya raya....mintak ransom money....isyh perempuan nih....!", bebel Khai.

Dari kejauhan kedengaran Juan memuji villa Imran. "Imran, you've a nice place here", sambil Juan bergambar 'selfie' di terrace tingkat atas dengan Imran. "Can we go for a swim in the pool? Can the temperature be adjusted?", Juan menarik lengan Imran menuju tingkat bawah.

"Q, apa kau biarkan Juan mengedik dengan Imran?", Khai memarahi aku.

"Kau ni Khai bukan main garangnya....We are here to have a good time. Let her be.....I know Imran, he is running away from perempuan like Juan....", I replied. "Imran is a gentleman bukan lelaki seperti yang kau sangkakan."

"Sudahlah Q......, kerja Imran pun kau tak tahu.........", dan Khai meninggalkan aku sendirian.

Kata-kata Khai masih bermain-main dibenak fikiran aku. 

The dreamy sea was its own master. It was forging its own sea song. Soothing. The gushing waves was comforting. I stood there by chance......just simply....

Credit to You Tube and Biscoito Fino

"Hey dreamy girl.....what are you thinking?", Imran came from behind and crossed his arms around me. He kissed my shoulder. "Now I can have you all to myself....I missed you so much...". he whispered softly and rocking me at the same time.

"I found the Mecca of coves. Look....at this view....I am lost with words.....", I said. Suddenly a current of cold electricity passed through the air. We shivered. The wind whipped up. The sea simmered.

"Do you want to sit inside? It's getting chilly out here...", Imran suggested.

"In a bit. I just wanna stand here and watch the ocean. I love the ocean but I am terrified of open the sea. I am not a good swimmer......", I responded.

Imran diam......"Look at that how the strong waves pounded into the cliffs of the sheltered cove. The sound they make.... Magnificent kan?", I added.

"You are absolutely right. Did you know in Khrabi, Thailand, there's two island clearly separated at high tide. Then sand bar slowly appears during low tide. People can walk across from one island to the other....", Imran replied. Penuh aksi tangan.....

"Facinating...got to be there to feel the real thing. Are all the sea the same?", I asked. I pressed my body against his and looking for the exact comfort spot.

"In my opinion. yes. The sea are all the same and there is continuity though sea levels may differ...", he replied dan mengemaskan pelukannya.

"Hmmmm........", I nodded. "You love the ocean very much kan?", I asked Imran


"Yes, very much. The ocean makes me happy and relax. This is my home when I'm in Bali.", he said.

"Yeah, the scenery and the sound makes my imagination run wild a bit....", I giggled.

He came close to my ears and said, "Q........, the feeling to have you curled up in my arms can never be put in words. I can however tell you it is where you belong. And it is in these arm I feel I'm home.",  Imran expressed his feelings.

Aku senyap......goose bumps all over me......I felt weak.

"Lately all I do is think about you, Q. Every aspect of my life now reminds me of you." He then turn me around facing him. He had both his hands cupped my face.

"You make me feel whole, complete, like nothing else in this world matters as long as I have you. Honestly when I wake up and go to sleep and you are the first and last thing on my mind.", and he kissed my forehead.

"It’s like when someone asks me how I feel about you and I am able to explain every detail regardless how long it takes. It’s when I can’t think about being without you because it scares me. I found you, a friend and a significant other all in one.", he kissed the tip of my nose.

I place each of my hand on his arm. "Imran.....you surprised me with your words....", I was flattered actually. I scanned his face, from his eye brows, his eyes, his sharp nose and those lips.

"Sometimes I am scared. Sometimes I am confused. I feel like we're moving too fast. We barely know each other. Please don't get me wrong. I like you, Imran. I look forward being with you. It's just........", I paused. 

Imran ducked his face down to catch a glimpse of my facial expression. He lift my face and asked...., "It's just.....what? What is it? You can tell me,.....".  

I turned to my right because I felt embarrassed staring at his face.....Unexpectedly, his hand drifted to my hip. It settled there and pulled me closer.  

I inhaled sharply and I replied, "After meeting you, I have never had this blood rushing to my head whenever you hold my hands. I never felt before my heart beat so fast when I hear your voice. I have never sat down and smile to myself when I think of you......Is this what it's like being ......in love?"

Imran smiled. "Q, yes, the feeling is mutual.", he confirmed my doubts. His breathing quickened as was mine. He began nuzzling my neck with delicate kisses. So faint, they were whispers. I tried to push him away, but couldn’t. My limp body began to tremble uncontrollably. 

Then his head was angled slightly to the side as his lips came closer and closer to mine. I was surprised to find my lips parted. Our breaths mingled. My heart fluttered inside. Then his arms encircled me. He planted several delicate butterfly of a kiss on my lips.

"So, you have never been in love like this before....? Kalau dah tersenyum sendirian, dah kes berat ni.....we have to put you in a mental institution then.......", and we both laughed.

"Okay......let's make full use of this weekend here to get to know each other. I have to warn you I am not perfect. Like any man, I snore when I sleep. I look like a zombie when I wake up in the morning.....I don't go to the office like other men. I work in my Bermuda shorts....", he proclaimed.

"Alright, alright, alright.....I get what you mean.......". we laughed. 

I did not anticipated what happened next. He lean forward as he brushed his lips against mine. Not innocently, like a tease but hot, fiery, passionate and demanding. I want to pull away before I lose myself but I didn't.....…In this minty moment, my senses have been seduced and I can no longer think straight.

“Quxandria” , he whispers slowly, prolonging each letter as if to savor them. I smile, my heart fluttering at his voice as I clasp my hands on either side of his face. Never before has my name ever felt so wonderful.…

In my heart.....Imran I am falling in love with you.....I know for sure.

Chapter 17

That night we had dinner with Imran. The hotel he is staying look so grand and is call Suarga Padang Padang. There is a public beach close by and I have heard so much about its beautiful beach. Best place to surf. Imran showed us around the hotel and the pool.

"Did you ladies brought your bathing suit?", Imran bertanya. "Perhaps after dinner you can swim here and we can order supper."

Juan instantaneously replied, "Can't leave home without it...", showing off her bare shoulder indicating she has her bikini on.

"Okay, let's grabbed dinner and get to know each other.....", Imran invited us all to the hotel restaurant.

The view here was breathtaking. Restaurant Dugung was so uniquely designed. This beachfront restaurant specializes in international cuisine and serves breakfast, lunch, dinner, and light fare. Guests can enjoy drinks at the bar. 

In general, men are not supposed to show their emotions. If a man is showing you his true emotions, it is because he is comfortable and feels truly safe with you. He loves you. 

From the moment I arrived he hasn't let go of my hand. Digengamnya erat tangan aku seolah-olah he doesn't want to let go. Segan jugak aku rasa bila tingkah laku aku menjadi perhatian Juan dan Khai. Kadang-kadang sengaja aku melarikan pandangan dari mereka. 

"So Imran...., Q dah cerita her side of the story. What about you? Anything you wanna add on?, tanya Juan.

"I am sure Q has covered all important timeline...am I right?", he turned and look at me. I nodded.

"Kau tu apasal Q, senyap je? Tiba-tiba bisu bila Imran ada.....", Khai memerli aku. Aku senyum dan membaling napkin yang terletak di tepi pingan ke arah Khai.

"She's just nervous ......", Imran replied in my defense.

Dinner and company was fantastic and everybody had a great time. Once I warm up, I was myself again.

While we were eating, a guy came and greeted Juan. Looks like Juan recognized him too from a training they attended in Kuala Lumpur. I pretended not to hear their conversation but Imran invited, Duff, to join for dinner. Duff obliged and both guys talk about surfing. Imran said that if Duff wants to experience the best waves meet him here and they can walk to Padang-Padang Beach tomorrow morning. Duff was excited and said he will be here.

"Why don't you ladies come along. I promised that you won't regret it.", Imran said. Then he turn to me. "Have you tried surfing Q? 

"Tried it though I am not a great fan of open water.", aku jawab dengan precise. I have nothing to hide. I just don't like being in deep water.

"It's okay I 'll be more than happy to teach you surf...", and kissed my left temple. It caught me by surprised. Aku tersenyum saja. What he doesn't know....., let's kept it that way.....

"I don't know Imran....isn't the water very cold in the morning.....?, Juan replied. She made a shivering movement while rubbing both of her arms. Then Duff put his hands around Juan as though to comfort or warm her up. Juan pun terletuk di bahu Duff.....Juan..., Juan....., pantang nampak lelaki Mat Saleh mesti naik miang keladi dia......

"Alright let's resume to my room. We'll order supper later. Just bring along your drinks....", Imran mengajak kami ke biliknya seolah-olah tempat ini macam rumahnya. He is so comfortable around his environment.

Then we proceed to his room.......

Chapter 16

The next morning I woke up, Juan and Khai were not in bed. I hear water splashing coming from the terrace. Rupanya mereka dah berendam di dalam kolam renang.

They looked so relax. Aku terus masuk ke kamar mandi dan bersiap-siap untuk aktiviti pertama kami. Aku keluar semula dan mereka masih bersantai.

"Girls, we do not want to be late. We're going shopping.....!!!", aku cuba menarik perhatian mereka. Dengan sekelip mata saja mereka berenang ke arah aku.

Semasa mereka selesai mandi dan bersalin pakaian, aku mengingati Juan untuk call the tour operator. Tell them, "We want a refund!", aku mengajar Juan.

We took the hotel limo and headed to Kuta district in the look out for malls and crafts market. At this rate we were willing to spend a lot of money on transportation.

Kuta Beachwalk is an easy stroll from the beach and is a premier leisure destination in Kuta. It houses numerous shops, restaurants and entertainment facilities promoting international brands and franchises. The Beachwalk is a first for Bali, sporting a unique design that is to some extent a major departure from the typical mall. Here you’ll find designer's brands such as Armani Jeans, Furla, Versace Jeans, GAP, The Face Shop and so on. 

I read on as in the brochure, the architect applied eco-friendly measures in its sustainable design, including minimum air-conditioning in open spaces and a special rainwater collection system. Whatever it means, it sure sounded impressive.


Then we headed to Mal Bali Galleria. We spent quite a long time shopping at Matahari and duty free shop. About 2 p.m. we stopped for a late lunch. We have one more destination which is the Art Market.

Memang seronok membeli belah especially souvenirs to bring back home. I also bought several pieces of decorative plates and tray. Mommy will like this...

Aku tak pasti whether I should text Imran just let him know where I am now. I mean we are still at the early stage of getting to know each other.....but then I did promise to call him. So I send a picture of me having fun in Kuta.....

>Checking my messages. Nothing from u 😁<

A few seconds later I received a reply from Imran.

>Looking gorgeous as always. I miss you💗<
>Done with meeting<
>Wanna see you.<

Aku tersenyum sendirian. "Woi makcik share sikit jangan syok sendiri. Orang fikir you tak siuman pulak nanti." Khai mengusik aku.

"Ala orang tengah bercinta, memang macam tu....", Juan menyampuk dan mencebik mulutnya.

Aku pula menjawab, "Oh, orang bercinta macam ni ye....termenung dan senyum sendiri?"

"Eh eh.....tak kan lah kau tak pernah bercinta Q?", Khai bertanya dan mengeselkan lengannya pada lengan aku.

"Kalau perasaan yang aku rasa ni dikatakan cinta....nope, belum pernah lagi...", aku jawab sambil menggeleng-gelengkan kepala. Kedua-dua mereka berpandangan.....

"Girl, where have you been?? You're missing the best things in life.....", kata Juan sambil mengangguk-anggukkan kepalanya.

I replied Imran's message.

> How about I take up on your offer....dinner.......tonight?<

Imran : >Deal! I'll send my car and pick you and your friends 7:30 pm<

Me : >Cool. see you tonight<

Imran : >Yes, can't wait for tonight.<

Chapter 15

Aku melangkah masuk ke villa kami dan keadaan sekeliling sungguh cantik sekali. Tapi aku terlalu penat langsung melabuhkan punggung aku di atas tilam empuk. Aku menghela nafas panjang dan menjatuhkan badan aku ke atas katil.

"Okay, please do not keep us in suspense. Tell us when did it happened?", Juan asked dan melompat naik ke atas katil.

"Did you both planned this meeting in Bali?", Khai pulak mengajukan soalannya.

"Come on girls, I am tired and hungry. Let's order room service and I'll tell you as we eat....", aku memujuk mereka.

"Okay, janji ya....?", Khai stressed. I nodded and replied, "Janji". I closed my eyes. I'm picturing Imran in my head....I don't believe in reincarnation but if there is, I want it to be you, Imran, in every single life of mine.

It was 10 p.m. when our food arrived. We sat and ate quietly. Not a single word between us as we enjoyed our meal. Then I started to tell Juan and Khai my story.

"It started that day itself, Khai. Betul telahan kau. Dia menyimpan perasaan terhadap aku. Cuma aku saja yang tak nampak. Kau tahu dia hantar aku balik ke pejabat dari EPF that day. His car broke down and we shared a Grab. I turun at EPF and he headed to Putrajaya. Habis saja appointment aku at EPF tiba-tiba dia datang jemput aku dengan kereta dia. Sampai pejabat he asked for my number.", aku perhatikan muka Khai and Juan kusyuk mendengarkan cerita aku....

"A few days later he whatsapp me and send a picture of him surfing...". Aku pun menunjukkan gambar Imran di dalam album talipon bimbit aku. Terbeliak mata mereka.

"Wow he is a surfer. No wonder lah he likes to come to Bali......I want to see him topless...", terkekek Juan ketawa. Aku tumpang sekaki jugak.

"Bukan topless lah...itu untuk perempuan. ....bare chested.......", sampuk Khai.

"We messaged each other and agreed to me at HRC last Thursday night....", Juan menambah lauk sayur campur ke dalam pinggan dia.

"Bagi aku fresh oren tu. Kering tekak bercerita....", Juan terus menghulur segelas air oren yang dihiasi dengan sepotong oren dan payung koktel.

"You know what....(aku meneguk air oren..), rupanya dia kenal Kasyaff. Imran was at my parent's kenduri that Thursday night. Tak sempat aku nak jumpa dia tiba-tiba he disappeared.....", aku pun selesai makan.

"Aku dengan penuh semangat drive terus ke HRC. But I got stood up by him....I stayed until past midnight batang hidung dia pun aku tak nampak...!", aku menunujukkan frustration aku.

"Then what happened?", asked Khai.

"Aku baliklah....tak kan la aku nak melepak kat situ lagi...", aku jawab.

"Habis tu kau tak call dia ke?", Juan bertanya.

"I did. Several times and also texted him. Tapi dia tak reply pun....", I explained.

"When I arrived at my Condo, he was there waiting for me...he said he was a bit confused of what he heard from Kasyaff. The reason he did not turn up at HRC sebab Kasyaff have been telling his friends yang dia dah bertunang....dengan aku....Imran wanted to confront me whether I am really engaged to Kasyaff. At the time he didn't know Kasyaff tu my brother. We went for a drive. That was our first date. Well,.....and the rest is history.", aku mengakhiri cerita aku.

"And this trip to Bali, was it planned?", Juan wanted to know.

"Tak.....I tak plan pun. One night after I had a huge row dengan Abang Ngah, I called Imran. He told me that he's travelling to Bali for a business trip. And I told him my friends and I will be vacationing in Bali this weekend. Kita dah booked dulu tiket kita kan....?", trying to convinced both of them that it was just a coincidence.

"So we're here in Bali to spend time and have fun. Let's celebrate our friendship.....by getting some sleep....", and I instantly jumped on to the bed.....and we laughed. Let the vacation begins.......

"Wah dasyat jugak Kasyaff boleh mengaku dia dah bertunang dengan kau.", Juan said.

"Yeah, aku marah dia and told him that I don't feel the same way he does. Tapi dia tak nak dengar...Itu yang aku benggang dengan Abang Ngah aku tu. I just wanna rest and release some stress kat Bali ni.", sambil memeluk bantal.

"Q, .....you sukakan Imran....?", tanya Khai yang baring bersebelahan aku.

"Yes, Khai......I think I like him a lot.....", lalu tersenyum memandang ke arah Khai.

Chapter 14

Aku, Juanita dan Khairiah selamat sampai di Bali dan sedang menantikan pemandu pelancong kami yang sudah setengah jam tak muncul tiba.

"Juan, apa nak buat ni.....aku dah penat menunggu....aku dah terbayangkan tilam yang empok dan swimming pool.", runggut Khai.

"Sabarla sikit....kalau dia tak sampai in 10 minutes we get an airport limo okay....aku sendiri akan bayar", pujuk Juan. Timbul rasa bersalah agaknya sebab semua ground arrangement Juan yang aturkan. Kami hanya perlu membeli tiket Airasia.

"Ialah Khai, we wait another 10 minutes kalau tak ada we get the airport limo or taxi....", aku bersetuju dengan pendapat Juan.

Sambil memandang keadaan yang hampir lengang, tiba-tiba aku dikejutkan dengan sapaan seseorang. "Hi gorgeous....", aku pun memalingkan kepala aku.

Sungguh aku tak sangka akan bertembung Imran di airport. I opened my mouth wide in disbelief. "Imran......you baru sampai?", I stood up and went straight to him. Hendak saja aku memeluk Imran but instead I shook his hands. Imran tersenyum lalu meramas hujung rambut aku.

"Delay dengan MAS tadi but we arrived as schedule. What are you doing here alone?', he dropped his bag and had both hands on my shoulder.

"Panjang ceritanya....I think my friends and I got stood up by the tour operator. We have been waiting here for 45 minutes and now planning to take a taxi to our hotel." I replied. "My friends over there, the two ladies in the sunhat in the middle of the night, are tired. We just wanna go to the hotel and rest."

"Okay.....let me help you. My car is parked right over there. Gather your friends, your things and I'll get you to your hotel.", Imran suggested. How could I say no to that offer.

"Hey girls, come over here...", sambil aku memerhatikan mereka menarik bag pakaian. Semakin dekat mereka semakin terukir senyuman di bibir.....

"Hello, awak...saya ingat....awak yang dengan Q terlanggar and popcorn bertabur....", Khai refreshed her memory. Imran ketawa....

"Yes that's me....", and he didn't stopped laughing.

"Imran, let me introduce you to my friends, you know Khai and that is Juan...Girls, this is Imran...", mereka berjabat tangan. Juan tak lepas memandang Imran. Jealous pulak aku rasa.....

"Hello ladies, nice to meet you....", Imran greeted Juan and Khai.

"So....and you are here alone?," tanya Juan sambil melenggok-lenggokkan badannya.

"I was....but I'm not anymore...", Imran menjawab sambil menandang aku. Aku menundukkan kepala. Malu aku dibuatnya....

Juan and Khai terdiam....they looked at each other and then at me. "Q?.....you and him.....Q? the both of you are.....seriously!?", lalu mereka berdua melompat kegirangan apabila tekaan mereka betul. Aku masih menundukkan muka....."Teruk you tak cerita pun.....", Juan mencubit pinggang aku.

"Ouch! sakitlah....", aku terkejut. Aku perhatikan Imran tersenyum lebar.....

"Ladies, it's quite late and let's get into the car and be on our way.....", Imran instructed us to get into the limo.

"Pak, tolong hantar teman-teman gue ke....", Imran spoke to the chauffeur. "Which hotel Q?", he looked at me.

"Alila Villas Uluwatu...", I replied.

"Pak, ke Alila Villas Uluwatu langsung ke hotel saya nanti...", Imran said.

On the way to the Villa, Juan and Khai fell in and out of sleep in the back seat of the Alpard. Imran and I sat in an individual seat with arm rest separated by an aisle. Sometimes we steal glances and smile at each other.

"You're okay there...?", Imran asked. I nodded.

"Your friends, they are pretty handful....", Imran smiled. I laughed.

"Yes they are but they are fun to travel with....", I replied.

"You should arrive soon at your Villa.", he said and looked out the window.

"You are very familiar with Bali from what I can see.....", I asked and placed my elbow on the arm rest. I twist my body facing him.

"My mother is half Balinese half Malay and I grow up mostly here and Australia. I come here often to visit my mother...", he explained. I thought that was interesting.

"Pak Imran, Alila Villas.....", the chauffeur interrupted our conversation. Aku memerhati ke luar tingkap kereta....alhamdulillah sampai pun dah.....aku bersyukur di dalam hati.

Aku mengejutkan Juan and Khai. Mereke terjaga sambil mengosok-gosok mata. I helped them get off from the limousine safely. "We're here at the hotel, Q?", asked Juan.

"Yes we are. You guys go a head and the porter will take care of our luggage. Juan you have all the booking details with you right?", I asked.

"Yes, yes....", Juan answered and walked towards the reception counter.

"I'll catch up with you guys soon....", I told both Khai and Juan. Then I turned to Imran.

"Thanks so much for your help....I really appreciate it.", I said to Imran.

"No worries. You helped me once before when my car broke down and now it's my turn to return the favor.", he held my hands. "Q, I wanna see you tomorrow after my meeting."

"I can't promise anything yet....I am sure the girls want to go shopping in Kuta and visit Tanah Lot. I'll message you tomorrow.....?", I suggested to him.

"Alright, my meeting finishes at 3 p.m. and I am free for the rest of the weekend. One last thing, just be mindful of what you eat, most places in Bali serve non-halal food.", Imran reminded me.

"Thanks for the tip.....", Imran membetul-betul kan rambut aku. I didn't stopped him.

"I've got to go....though I am not ready to face the interrogation from Juan and Khai. It would be alright for me to tell them about us....?", I asked Imran.

Imran nodded. He kissed my hands and we said our good byes.....I walked slowly to the reception area and saw Juan still talking to the Night Manager about our room. Aku mencari sofa di penjuru lobby sambil melayan perasaan bersendirian....

"Hello makcik.....! Bilik semua dah siap. Jom....jangan nak berangan saja. You have to tell us everything Q....every details and don't leave out a single thing.....", perintah Juan. Aku hanya mampu tersenyum saja.

Chapter 13

Setiba aku di rumah, Abang Ngah made himself comfortable in front of the  TV. "Assalamualaikum....", I greeted Abang Ngah.

"Walaikumsalam Q......where have you been....", Abang Ngah stood up and came barging towards me.

"Hey Abang Ngah, relax la......Q baru sampai and Abang marah-marah Q. I am not a little kid anymore....", aku meninggikan suara.

I walked into the living room and sat on the sofa. "I have told you I was at a friends'. We catch up about old times. And I fell a sleep....", I explained.

"Then why is your car parked at the guard house....?" I can't believe this..... Abang Ngah was full for sh*t. I was totally pissed off with him.

"My friend came to get me here. We were supposed to meet at HRC but I got stood up...", I replied with anger. "I do not need this right now. Why should I explain myself to you?....Abang please leave me alone.....oh by the way, what have you been telling people....? You are engaged? To me? What's wrong with you? Please leave and on your way out, leave the door keys on the table. Malunya Q.......abang cerita kat kawan abang yang Q ni tunang abang? What is the matter with you? Have you lost your mind!!! Q ni adik abang sampai bila-bila......faham tak?".

The rage I see on his face scared me for a moment. He looked at me in disbelief the way I confronted him....he walked away and slammed the door on his way out. I was stunned. Aku memekup muka aku dengan kedua-dua belah tangan sambil mengeleng-gelengkan kepala. Is he serious? About me and him? Aku tersentak, mengangkat kepala dan membeliakkan mata aku. Oh my God........, he is serious about us.......

Knowing Abang Ngah yang muka tebal, he came back to my place the very next day. I am surprised he acted as though nothing happened. I kept quiet and try as much as possible to have less contact with him.

After Abang Ngah left that night I braved myself and called Imran. He answered after the third ring.

Me : "Assalamualaikum......"

Imran : "Waalaikum salam.....sorry lambat angkat phone......how are you?"

Me : "It's okay.....I'm alright....what have you been up to....."

Imran : "It's really nice to hear your voice.....well if you must know I am making arrangements for a business trip this Thursday to Bali."

Me : "Business trip to Bali? I thought you said you wanna life your life..."

Imran : "I travel if my presence is required. This time it will be one meeting and leisure for most part."

Me: (I giggled......)

Imran : "Why is it so funny? What am I missing here....?"

Me : "I am sorry.....I didn't mean to sound rude, but  a few girl friends and myself are going to Bali this Thurday....such a coincidence....."

Imram : "Seriously....? If you and girl friends won't mind accepting a dinner invitation from me while in Bali, do let me know. I will text you my hotel and just give me a call or leave message."

Me : "Sounds cool. I might take on your offer. Hope yo see you there too....."

Imran : "Yeah that would be fun....."

Me : (I was silent for a moment)....."hmmm anyway, I leave you with whatever you're doing...."

Imran : "Q? Any particular reason you called me tonight.....?"

Me : (Aku diam) "No....no particular reason...just wondering how are things with you."

Imran : "All I wanna say is I missed you and I am glad you called."

Me : "Imran?.....The other day....., thank you so much for extending your hospitality to me. I was a little embarrassed especially with Mak Jah. Segan sangat."

Imran : "No worries. Mak Jah tu baik orangnya and she likes you. She said you sopan and manis orangnya."

Me : "Thank you. (I smiled to myself...)  So sorry I had to leave early, and you know I have to sort out things with Kasyaff."

Imran : "Shhh....nothing to be sorry about. All I am thinking is Bali and your presence there. We'll have a blast."

Me : "Alright. I am looking forward seeing you there."

The telephone conversation ended a few seconds later. I'm missing Imran already....

Two nights later Abang Ngah popped by my place and I told Abang Nagh that I am going away for a few days with some friends. He looked at me...and before he can say anything I said, "If you are willing to wear bikini throughout the vacation you are welcome to join. Otherwise leave me alone....", I warned him.

"I'm sensing that you are still mad at me?", he replied and stood up.

"Mad at you? Mad at you! No, I am furious.....Mommy tau tak apa Abang buat? Tak malu ke Abang?, You tell people that we are engaged? People know kita adik beradik....Your friend must think you are a lunatic or pervert!", I spoke out.

"There is where you are wrong.....pada zahirnya saja kita adik beradik tapi pada batinnya we are not......sah kalau kahwin......", he tried to convince me that we can be legally married.

"No! Selama ini Q anggap Abang Ngah tak lebih dari seorang abang yang menyayangi adiknya. Q tak ada perasaan cinta lebih dari seorang adik kepada seorang abang....sedarlah Abang Ngah....Q adik susuan Abang. Mommy told me that.....", I was determined to make him understand facts.

"Pandai je....adik susuan konon....Nope mommy never told me about it....", he argued and does not want to accept the truth.

"Whatever......., please don't come by to my house no more until you realized what you did was wrong!", I walked to the door and opened it for him. "I'm sorry abang, Q sayang abang tapi Q tak cinta abang.", I said point blank and held my palm up for the apartment keys.

He had a disappointed look on his face but he left anyway. The moment he left, I unfriend him in Instagram, Facebook and Twitter.

Chapter 12

For now, I do not have any choice but to let her go....next time it's not going to be easy for her. I need her in my life. She is the one I have been waiting for. She fills the gap, the empty space I had in a long time. To have conversation with her at 7 am in the morning without make up, I think that is love. She's just a good person in so many ways that always make me love and respect her that much more.

It was an indescribable feeling; I just felt this utter peace and love towards her. She was just perfect: The way her long dark eyelash fluttered against her cheekbones, the faint pink blush in her checks, the slight smile on her lips and how she just smelled. I just knew she was the one for me.

"Apa yang Im fikirkan......Kalau dah suka berterus terang....nanti terlepas gigit jari sendiri...", Mak Jah bersuara sambil tangannya mengelap meja.

Aku tersentak. Aku menghirup kopi di meja dapur sambil tersenyum.....

"Nak tunggu apa lagi, Im.......dah ada depan mata....cantik, sopan, merendah diri, insya Allah murah rezeki....Mak Jah setuju sangat. Tak elok bawak anak dara orang kalau tak ada niat jujur....",  nasihat Mak Jah.

"Im hormati penilaian Mak Jah. Im dah anggap Mak Jah seperti emak Im sendiri. Niat dah ada tapi ada halangan. Saya perlukan masa untuk mengenali hati budinya. Saya tak mahu terburu-buru kali ini. Saya mahu dia menyayangi saya seikhlas hatinya. Saya pun takut kehilangannya.......", aku jawab.

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"Ialah......Mak Jah mengingatkan saja.....Im, makan tengahari ke kat rumah. Mak Jah boleh masak gulai kicap ayam yang Im suka sangat....?", tanya Mak Jah.

"Nasi goreng tadi ada lagikan? Pandai-pandailah Im nanti. Mak Jah baliklah....kalau Im lapar Im bolah call ajak Q dinner ke nanti.....", aku tersenggih lalu mengenyit mata kat Mak Jah.

"Ada-ada je la kau ni Im.....kunci rumah nanti elok-elok.....Hmmm, Mak Jah balik dulu....Assalamualaikum...", ucap Mak Jah.

Aku menyalam Mak Jah dan mencium tangannya. Dia kemudian bersuara, "Im perasan tak kebaikan yang Q baru bawa dalam hidup Im? Apa yang baru Im buat kat Mak Jah? Mak Jah terharu bila Im mencium tangan Mak Jah.....". 

My next response was natural.....I hugged Mak Jah. I heard her sobbed. I wiped her tears with both my thumbs. She wiped her nose with the end of her blouse. Then she let herself go and grabbed her bag from the kitchen counter. She stopped and wiped my tears. Aku mengangguk-anggukkan kepala.

She left.

Waalaikum salam.......Mak Jah.

Chapter 11

Selesai sarapan pagi, Mak Jah membawa aku ke bilik tetamu. Imran mengikuti dari belakang. "Im, ada baju ke untuk Q pakai?", Mak Jah bertanya.

"Nanti Im carikan...", Imran menjawab. Dia masih terjegat memerhatikan aku.

"Apa lagi...pergilah cari sekarang...", perintah Mak Jah. "Malalutlah Im ni. Q masuk dan mandi nanti Mak Jah tinggalkan baju atas katil ya...."

Aku menganggukkan kepala. Aku memalingkan muka dan terpandang Imran. Dia tersenyum dan berlalu pergi.

Selepas mandi aku mengenakan kemeja putih kepunyaan Imran. Tetapi seluar trek yang di sertakan terlalu besar. Jadi aku menyarung seluar jeans yang aku pakai semalam. Setelah berpuas hati dengan penampilan aku, aku keluar dari bilik dan berjalan ke arah ruang tamu untuk mencari tas tangan. Puas aku cari tapi tak jumpa....

"You're looking for this.....", Imran rupanya and he was holding my Chanel handbag.

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I went over to him, "Yes, I was actually looking for my handbag. Thank you.", I answered. I immediately dug inside the bag searching for my mobile phone.  I read message after message and most of it from Abang Ngah.

"Kasyaff looking for you?", Imran asked. I smiled and looked up at him. Aku mengangguk....

"He wants to know where I've been and why I left my car at the guard house.....", I replied.

"He's a frequent visitor at your place?" I thought that question was unnecessary. Kasyaff is my brother and he can come anytime of the day he wants. I nodded.

"And that's how I know where you lived. Kasyaff gave me his address in Cyberjaya so that we can 'hangout'. He said he lives there.........with his fiance...", Imran spoke.

Aku terduduk di sofa empuk berwarna putih mendonggak memandang Imran. "Damn it, Kasyaff...!!", and I was pissed off. I stood up.

"Excuse me, I have to call my brother otherwise he'll be on his way to make a missing person report at the police station....", I excused myself and walked slowly towards the backyard.

It took me 15 minutes to explained and convinced Kasyaff I am fine barulah dia puas hati. He wants me home by noon. I turn and was about to get back inside the house when I Imran was standing right behind me all this while.

"Do I have to compete for your love, Q?", by his tone I realized Imran wants some kind of reassurance from me.

"Imran, he is my brother. And I have 2 other elder brothers. You would definitely have to compete with them....But I like you. Not a brotherly way.....", I teased him. Imran grabbed my hand and placed it around his waist, "I am not good at sharing but if it means I have to compete to get your attention, I will and I promise that to you.". Imran was firm.

Not letting him go yet, I stood closer and I felt my breast slightly brushed against him. I replied, "Imran, you have nothing to worry about.....". And for the first time I allow him to hold me in his arms. He kissed my forehead and do not want to let him go.....

Imran took a deep breath. "Can I call you sometime...?", he asked. I looked up at him and replied, "I would really love that.....". I hugged him again. Then he said, "I wish you don't have to go.....". Aku membisu di dalam pelukan Imran.

"So do I but I have things to deal with Kasyaff. He is giving the impression to people that I am engaged to him....just like how you felt...", I said.

Though Imram insisted to send me back home, I explained that it is better that I take an Uber. I am not ready to show off Imran in front of Abang Ngah. I don't know how he is going to react if he sees me with Imran. He has been spreading lies telling his friends that he is engaged to me. 

"I better go in and say thank you to Mak Jah....", I told Imran and both of us went inside hand in hand. Mak Jah was in the kitchen.

"Mak Jah, Q balik dulu....terima kasih banyak-banyak...nasi goreng Mak Jah memang sedap.". Imran didn't let go of my hand. "Kalau Q datang lagi satu hari nanti, boleh Mak Jah masakkan nasi goreng yang sama?", aku bertanya.

"Insya Allah, Mak Jah akan masakkan. Nak balik dah? Imran hantarke?, Mak Jah bertanya dan memandang ke arah Imran.

"Tak, Q nak ambil Uber, dia tak mahu Im hantar pulang....", Imran menjawab dan aku dapat menangkap tona dia yang kurang berpuas hati dengan keputusan aku.

"Eh biarla Imran hantar pulang....", Mak Jah berkata.

"Tak pa Mak Jah, saya sudah banyak menyusahkan Imran dan Mak Jah.....next time ya....?", aku jawab dan melepaskan gengaman Imran.

"Ialah....jaga diri baik-baik....", aku salam dan mencium tangan Mak Jah.

"Saya minta diri dulu, Assalamualaikum....", aku meminta diri.

I turned and looked at Imran. He smiled and said,  "I'm gonna miss you....". I gave him a flattering smile and raised my eye brows.

That morning he see me off in the Uber. I sat in the car and gave him one last look......I 'm falling for this guy.........

Chapter 10

By the time we reached my place, she was already fast a sleep. I watched her sleep for a while in the car and I can see the innocence showed on her face. So peaceful and her soft breathing making the world seems to stand still.

I got out of my car and opened her side of the door. Then I went over to the house and unlock the wooden door. I can't leave Q in the car so I carried her into the house and lay her on the sofa. Switched on the central air-conditioning. Covered her with blanket I always have on the sofa. I decided to call Mak Jah to come over immediately. She lives just down the road.

I sat opposite Q while she's a sleep. Her eyelids closed against the dim light of dawn and her breathing deep and relaxed, all the muscles in her face and body were totally at peace, like a baby. Not a twitch, barely any movement of her breasts rising and falling with each intake of air. Hers was a body totally at peace, at rest, at one with itself, rejuvenating the mind and muscles before the onset of yet another day of action. 

"Imran.....", I was startled. It was Mak Jah. She has been my house keeper since I came back from Perth. "Y a Allah, anak dara siapa Im bawak balik ni.....?", Mak Jah whispered and tap twice lightly on my shoulder.

"Ehhhh Mak Jah terkejut saya......Sssshhhhsssss.....,"and I placed my pointer finger on my lips. Then Mak Jah sat next to me staring at Q.

"Cantiknya dia Im....anak dara siapa ni....dah pandai bawak balik perempuan pulak sekarang ya....", Mak Jah menegur aku.

I smiled. "Ish, Mak Jah ni tak baik buruk sangka....ini anak Tan Sri Khaled.....", belum habis aku bercakap Mak Jah menyampuk....

"Ialah anak Tan Sri pun....kenapa Im bawak dia sini....tak eloklah.....tapi Im, memang cantik budaknya. Manis dan muka dia bersih. Tidur pun tersenyum. Hah,...tengok tu.....tersenyum dia.....agaknya dia mimpikan Im kot....", usik Mak Jah sambil dia melentokkan kepalanya ke kiri kemudian ke kanan.

"Atau, Im culik dia ye.....", seloroh Mak Jah. "Kenapa Im cari Mak Jah subuh-subuh ni. Nasib baik Mak Jah baru selesai solat...Im dah solat?"

"Belum lagi. Lalai sekejap tengok anak dara orang tu tidur.....", aku menusik Mak Jah sambil muncung aku di halakan ke arah Q. "Im panggil Mak Jah sebab Im tak mahu orang fikir Im buat benda tak baik dalam rumah ni.......Kalau Mak Jah ada Im rasa selesa sikit....".

"Ialah....Ialah....dah la tu, pergi solat Suboh dulu, nanti habis pulak waktu.........Mak Jah teman kan anak dara orang tu....Ada nama tak....?"Mak Jah bertanya

"Q...nama pendek bagi Quxandria", aku menjawab lalu bangun untuk menunaikan solat Suboh dan meniggalkan Mak Jah menemani Q.

"Amboi.......nama....., tergeliat nak menyebut...", dia berseloroh.

Selesai mandi and bersolat aku cepat keluar semula ke ruang tamu. Q masih nyenyak tidur. It was already 6:30 am and Mak Jah is in the kitchen preparing breakfast. The crackling sound coming from the kitchen must have awoken Q. She rubbed her eyes and looked around. Finally her eyes focused on me.

"Good morning Q...sleep well...?", I asked. She smiled and sat up.

"Morning......what time is it? Where am I and how did I get on the sofa....is someone cooking in the kitchen? And how long have you been sitting there?", she asked.

I got up and sat next to her. "Wow....way early for 20 questions....it's 6:45 am. Did you sleep well?", I wanted to know.

"Yes I did, and thank you....", she replied. I slowly ran my fingers through her hair as though my hand was like a large hair brush and tried to get any tangles out. Her hair was silky smooth. Then I heard Mak Jah called....

"Ehem...ehem....Im sarapan dah siap. Ajak kawan tu makan sekali...", and instantly I placed my hand down at the back of my neck.

"Come, I'll show you to the washroom and you can freshen up. Then we'll have breakfast....", I told her. She nodded dan memperbetulkan rambutnya. 

"Sejuk nasi goreng kat dapur tu......cepat sikit..", Mak Jah meninggikan suaranya.

Aku memerhatikan Mak Jah dan nampak dari jauh dia sedang ketawa tanpa suara. Dia memandang aku dan tersenyum....aku hanya menggeleng-gelengkan memerhatikan gelagat Mak Jah.  Mak Jah membuat isyarat SSShhhhhssssss!

I waited for Q outside of the washroom when she came out. Always generous with her smile she said, "Thank you.....".

I showed her the way to the kitchen......, "For what?", I wanted to know.

"For everything....", she replied and took a seat at the kitchen table.

"Im, jemput kawan makan...", Mak Jah instructed. But Q stood up and walked over to Mak Jah. She greeted Mak Jah with Assalamualaikum and kiss her hand to show her respect. Mak Jah menyambut salam Q.

"Dah....duduk, duduk....makan.....nanti sejuk pulak nasi goreng ni.", Mak Jah replied and scooped 3 laddle full of fried rice onto Q's plate. Q knows her way around the elderly. Nampak sejuk sikit hati Mak Jah.

"Terima Kasih...", Q answered.

"Apa nama ni.....tadi?", Mak Jah bertanya. Q looked up and replied, "Nama saya Quxandria, Mak Cik."

"Q untuk short form....", aku menyampuk. Mak Jah mengangguk-anggukkan kepalanya.

"Panggil saja Mak Jah. Im pun panggil Mak Jah. Q tinggal mana?", aku memerhatikan Mak Jah seperti seorang pegawai temuduga.

"Saya tinggal di Cyberjaya. Keluarga saya tinggal di Kuala Lumpur.", Q jawab lalu menyuap sesudu nasi ke dalam mulutnya.

"Hah.....Im, tak makan? Dah kenyang ya tengok muka anak dara orang.....", Mak Jah memerli aku. Adusss.....pedih tu.....tapi aku tersengih saja.

Q mengangkat mangkuk nasi goreng dan menghulurkan pada aku.....aku tersenyum. Dia mengukir sebuah senyuman manis. "Makan lah, nanti perut kosong....", Q memujuk. Lalu aku menyambut mangkuk tadi. "Thanks...", I replied.

Chapter 9

"So, tell me who is Imran....", Q asked. I laughed.

"Such a wide topic to cover....do you have a life time...?", I laughed again. She blushed. Just at the right time, George Michael's Amazing was playing on Spotify.

Credit to You Tube and georgemichaelVEVO

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise

The day you walked in and changed my life

I think it's amazing,

The way that love can set you free

So now I walk in the midday sun

I never thought that my savior would come

I think it's amazing

I think it's amazing

I think you're amazing

"I was so infatuated with George Michael since secondary school. He was like my teen idol. Such a talent and what a waste....Edge of Heaven, Everything she Wants, Kissing a Fool, Faith, Amazing....just to name a few. Beautiful songs and I could never get board listening. His hair, oh my God....classic.", Q started to talk about George Michael. She had a huge smile on her face, I guess she must be picturing George Michael in her head by now.....

"So you like his songs because of he's good looks or lyrics?", aku buat-buat interested.

"Both actually. He has the whole package. Looks, sexy, talented and voice. It doesn't matter whatever his sexual preferences or tragedy struck in his life.....I still listen to him because he writes good music....But people only appreciate and realized his talent when it's too late. Masa hidup kena kutuk dan caci bila dah mati barulah mengagung-agungkan dia......humans are so weird....", Q replied.

"Ok..., can't agree more with you....he is gifted.", I added.

"Amazing is one of my favorite...", and I turn to her, surprised by her choice of song.

"What about Careless Whispers......women drool over that song....", I said.

She laughed. "Of course but not as much as I love his hip, upbeat and funky type of music....no doubt about that...", Q nampak penat. Sekali sekala dia menguap dan cuba untuk menyembunyikan daripada aku.

"You look tired....", I said and kissed her hand. She looked at me and smile. Tak lekang senyuman di bibirnya.

"Maybe a little.....", she replied.

"Okay we're almost there.....", and I stopped the car at the edge of a popular look out point. "Come, I'll show you Kuala Lumpur at this hour....".

We walked a bit and lean against the front of my car. Soft wind was blowing through her hair. She confronted the breeze by tossing her head to left and right but several strands crisscrossing her face. Aku tergelak memerhatikan Q. She is really sexy.

"What's so funny.....?", she snapped at me.

"I'm sorry.....I guess the wind is quite strong up here....", I apologized to Q. I try not to laugh instead maintain a smile. "So, what do you think....of the view?", I asked Q.

"It is beautiful......oh look, that's KLCC and KL Tower....", as she walked close to the edge of the clift.

"Be careful.....I don't want you to fall off...", I raised my voice. She turned and walked back towards me. She stood in front of me and said, "Let's continue.......who are you....who is Imran...?". I gently run my fingers through her hair. She didn't stopped me but instead closed her eyes.

"Imran have been living in Perth for 10 years and now he is back in Malaysia. I sold my business, an architecture company because I want to return to my roots. Most of all I want to settle down and raise a family.", I started off the conversation.

"You don't have any regrets leaving Perth?", Q asked me. I folded my arms.

"None what's so ever....I am happy here now.", I shook my head. "Hidup di negara orang memang seronok tapi tak sama. Susah senang sendirian. I was so engulfed with setting up my business that I neglected my personal life. Obviously things didn't workout when she ran off to marry my business partner. Rupa-rupanya when I was so busy trying to build and stabilized my dreams, Rick played truant with my fiance." I told her the story of my life. The wind was blowing her hair and I softly caress it.

"Is that the reason why you came back to Malaysia? Heart broken?", and another question thrown at me.

I had nothing to hide from Q. "No. I stayed and concentrated with my work. Yes, I was heart broken and I did not want to think about having a relationship until I am successful." I answered.

Q lean against my car and stood next to me. She was staring at the dark sky. "And are you successful now?", Q asked.

"I think I am almost there.....just waiting for the cherry on top of the icing to complete my life....", and I turn to look at Q. I really hope she understood what I meant.

"But why did you sell off your business there? After all your dream became a reality." and Q turn side ways facing me.

"I guess I got tired. I am not getting any younger. I have chased after my dream. I've climbed the corporate ladder, I ran my own business and now I only want to live my life......", and I turn to face her. Our eyes met. We stood there and stared silently into each other's eyes for a few minutes......I so, so, so really want to touch her face.....

"Come let's go. I'll take you to my hide out.", and I grabbed her elbow. I opened the car door and she slide on to the seat. With Larisa we would have kissed and make out here and now but Q......she is like an onion....aku harus kupas kelopaknya satu demi satu.....I do not want to shed any more tears.

Chapter 8

Lampu pembahagi jalan menerangi Mex Highway.

"You just relax okay....I'll put on some music?", he asked. And I nodded.

Credit to caroemerald and You Tube

Dejevu......lagu ini sentiasa mengingatkan aku kepada novel favourite aku, 13 Jam A380 by Evelyn Rose. Macamana Hana dan Haidar dipertemukan. I lost count how many times I've read the first eight chapters. The odd of something happen like that is one in a million. Pandai penulis mempersendakan perasaan leading characters.  Masa mereka menari...masa Haidar merangkul Hana dan merenung burung berterbangan dari tingkap kapalterbang....hmmmm......sesuatu yang aku berharap untuk berlaku pada aku.

We were silent. Imran press a button on the dashboard and our side windows glide down.

Akhirnya aku dapat bersama dengan Q......

Quxandria.....kau pencuri hati aku.....

Dalam hidup setiap lelaki hanya akan ada seorang perempuan yang pasti membuat hidup berputar 360 darjah. Susah tidur, susah makan dan akan melakukan apa saja demi membahagiakan si dia. To me, it's Quxandria. I am in love with you, Quxandria.

The moment I laid eyes on her, there was thunder in my heart. I don't know why but it didn't stop. How her hair falls on her shoulder proportionately, her broad smile brighten up my day and the innocent look every time I look into her eyes. She is elegant, graceful, and humble at the same time..

"Are you cold....?......Q?.......", aku bertanya.

"Hmmmm.....no, no,...I am good...never done this before though.....", Q replied.

"What? Driving like this....?", aku menjawab dengan soalan.

"....not at 3 in the morning.....", Q answered and looked at me. That smile and those lips...emmm....membuat aku penasaran.

 "You're enjoying it...?", aku bertanya lagi.

"Yes, I am....don't mind me....I'll follow your lead....", she put her trust in me.

"This would sound crazy....would it be alright if I hold your hand,.....Q?", I asked politely. Blood rushing to my heart.

She turned to me. "I understand if you not comfortable with it....I thought I should asked first...." I replied before she could reject me.

But I hold up my arm. The next thing she slide her tiny fingers in between mine. That feels so warm. "Thank you...", I said. I gripped gently her fingers and bring it close to my lips.Then I placed our hands on my thigh.

"Imran......I am supposed to be mad at you. You stood me up....", she said. Her eyes were on me.

"I apologized. It will never happened again. I am making up for it now....", aku memujuknya. She smiled dan menoleh mukanya ke arah luar tingkap. Lenggok badannya tercari-cari kedudukan yang selesa di sebelah aku. She was embarrassed by my reaction.

"I'm still digesting your reasoning.....", she is very inquisitive.

"Which part you don't understand...", I rubbed her hand on my thigh.

"The part where you waited for me at my place and why you didn't answer my calls....", too many questions asked.

Silence.....how to begin to explain.....aku menarik nafas.

"alright....first of all, I minta maaf dengan you....it was like this.....I was taken a back after I heard Kasyaff's confession. So, I said to myself there's no point of me to meet her. I drove around for a while trying to decide what is my action next. If you were dating Kasyaff why did you agree to meet me.....and my confusion brought me to your place. I know I must see you. Maybe by me being there I could ask you face to face. Why did you agree to meet me when you are already have a fiance. So, is she being unfaithful to Kasyaff? Now that I know the truth, I am glad I waited for you.....Q, I am attracted to you,very much.....I had to see you tonight.", I answered her truthfully from my heart.

"Since when you and Kasyaff became friends? I kenal all of his friends. So the day we bumped into each other at the office, you datang jumpa Kasyaff lah ya?", again she is very inquisitive.

"Tak lama, about six months. We met through a mutual friend. Kasyaff is a rising talent in Malaysian architecture industry. So I just return from Perth and decided to learn from him...and yes, I was at Kasyaff's office that day....", I explained in length.

"Check!", she spoke.

"Check? What do you mean.....", I said. Turning to her a couple of times trying to interpret her facial expression. I gripped slightly harder out of nervousness and she snapped.

"Sakitlah.....alright, alright,....I believe you.....check! Got it?", Q struggle a bit but I was firm and didn't want to let her hand go. She stopped resisting.

"Did not mean to hurt you. I was nervous.....", I apologized. I slowly released her hand. At that moment Q said, "I'm nervous too.....", and she gripped my hand.

I smiled......in my heart as well.

Kami belum tahu apa yang akan terjadi pada hari esok, tapi aku pasti satu hari nanti apa yang kami punyai sekarang ini sudah lebih dari cukup. Aku, Quxandria dan saat ini, biarlah masa depan menjadi kejutan.

Chapter 7

Malu. Geram. Hampa. Sakit hati. Bercampur-baur perassan aku. It's okay. Tak apa.....aku jadikan pengajaran. Next time jangan gatal dan perasan sangat. Belajar untuk jual mahal sikit.

I arrived home close to 2 a.m. As I reached the guard house, one of the security stopped me. He said I have a guess and he has been waiting for me since midnight. He pointed me to a car parked at the designated visitor's spot.

This unexpected guess is making me nervous. Why wait at this hour.......besok saja tak boleh ke? As I am curious, I parked my car next to the guard house. I stepped out and walked over to the BMW. I've seen this car...in fact I've ridden in this car before........

Imran stepped out of the car and stood there. He looked at me, "Hi Q...".

"Hello Imran. How did you know where I live?, I asked and feeling confused.

"Q......maaf ya ganggu you like this......I know this is awkward.....", he said.

"Well,......more like weird I may add.... the guard informed me you have been waiting for me since midnight? That's a long wait.....I just came back from HRC. Supposed to meet a friend but I got stood up...", aku sindir Imran.

His face changed. I hope he feels guilty. "I....". He was about to reply tapi aku menjeling ke arah Imran.

Imran stepped forward and we are only one meter apart. Aku cepat-cepat berkata, "No worries. You don't need to explain. Anyway, you still have not answered my question. How did you know where I lived?".

"Just out of curiosity, were you at Tan Sri Khaled's kenduri doa selamat tonight?". He asked. Hah, so I was right......it was him. He was there.

"Yes I was. So it was really you whom I saw.....but where did you disappear?", aku bertanya sebab musykil kehilangan Imran.

He smiled and replied, "I saw you were busy and pretty occupied with a certain gentleman. I did not want to intrude. I am sure he is someone special?"

Aku dah agak mesti isu kemesraan Abang Ngah terhadap aku disalah tafsir. "Intrude? No. In fact I was hoping that you came over and said hello or something.....Special? Yes he is. Kasyaff is my brother.", I replied.

He was shocked. "So, Tan Sri Khaled is your father?", he wants a confirmation.

"Yes, he is....", dan aku perhatikan Imran menggangguk-anggukkan kepala.

"I did not know what to think when I saw you with Kasyaff. He is a close acquaintance from LAN. I watched you glide around mingling practically with everybody with ease. Tak lekang senyuman dibibir you. Tenang hati I when I manage to catch a glimpse of you once in a while. I met Kasyaff and conversation soon shifted about marriage. That was when he mentioned that he is engaged to be married and I assume you were the one. Both of you were so intimate at times and I saw how he grabbed you in public and kissed you on your forehead....I felt defeated.", he explained.

He went on....,"I left soon after you did. I wasn't thinking right......what kind of a woman who wants to go out with another man when she is already engage? Finding where you lived wasn't that difficult....waiting here and trying to put things in perspective was.....I am sorry I did not reply to your calls and messages.......".

I stood there listening to his explanation and lost with words. Then I blurted out, "You think Kasyaff is engaged to me? I should've known better. He is not engaged to anyone especially not to me....".

Imran looks confused. Then he smiled. "I didn't mean to stood you up tonight. It was wrong of me. I thought you and Kasyaff were a .....couple....".

Aku tergelak.....,"A couple? Next time please don't assume or jump into conclusion. Kasyaff and me memang rapat. I envision him as my life protector. We have a special bond and sometimes he might think that he owns me.....Imran, this is not a good start......I mean between us....an unusual first date.....if you still call this a date.", I explained and smiled to ease all tense moments.

Imran laughed, "Sure is an unusual first date. Alright! Let me make it up to you....Our first date...starts now...!".

"At 3 o'çlock in the morning?", I replied and looked at my wrist watch.

"Well, what have you got to lose?", he asked and I saw a sparkle in his eyes.

"Well, for one....my sleep,....", I said and showed a doubtful facial expression.

"Q, shhhhh......". Imran unfolded his arms and step closer to his car. The opened the front passenger door and welcome me in.

We drove off and soon we are on Mex Highway. Destination : I couldn't care less. I just want to be with Imran......