Imran arrived soon after I did and he came running. "What did you think you were doing? You went for the wedge? You're crazy?", he scream at me.
Duff who was standing there said, "Hey man....cool it...she did amazing....she's a wahine!".
"Man..... I am not sure why is he mad at me....what did I do?", I replied. I saw Imran threw his surfboard on the beach and walked over to me.
"Duff, please give us some privacy....", and Duff took off with his surfboard to the ocean.
"Q....., what were you trying to prove....?", Imran asked as he wiped off the seawater on his face.
"Nothing.....! I was surfing. That's what people do here. What's wrong with that Imran?", I detest. I shoved his shoulder. I saw Juan and Khai came running.
"Hey guys, what's going on.....", Juan bertanya. Khai pulak terpinga-pinga.
"It was a dangerous maneuver. She could hurt herself...", Imran protest. Khai tried to comfort Imran.
"Imran, Q has been surfing since she was 15 years old. She is very good at what she does....", Khai said. Imran was surprised.....
"Good? Good? Then why the hell she lied and said she had only surf once...?", Imran asked back.
"Q memang macam tu.....she knows how much you love surfing so she prefers not to boast about her skills. You kena faham tu Imran. Dia bukan jenis yang menunjuk-nunjuk.", explained Khai selamba.
"But......", Imran seem regretted his action. He looked at me.....
"I wanna go back to our villa. I am not sure if I wanna be here anymore....you guys coming?", aku mula melangkah untuk meninggalkan pantai itu tapi dihalang oleh Imran....
"Q, please don't go.....I'm really sorry....", he apologized....."Okay maybe I over reacted. I shouldn't have raised my voice at you. Q, please don't leave.", Imran grabbed hold of my arm.
"Imran just let go. Give her some space....", said Juan.
But Imran still held my arm. "Q, if you really want to go, tell me. I'll let go of you......", Imran said. Aku serba salah. I can just walked away and never look back but what would it be to our relationship. I am still trying to decide......
"Q, cepatlah......", Juan was persistent. She came closer to me.
"Let go of my arm, Imran...'", I insisted. And instantly, Imran let go of me.....he grabbed his surf board and ran to the ocean....I stood there and watch him disappear under the waves.
Imran........I called him.....in my heart.......I watched him walk away knowing I may not see him again. I felt like a thousand daggers were being thrust into my chest and twisted. My breath came in short, painful gasps that left me dizzy and nauseated.
I struggled with the urge to run after him but my feet
felt like they were encased in the cement and my heart pounded in my chest. Why
is this happening to me? What could I have done differently?
Deep down I knew that the hurt would eventually
disappear, but at that moment I couldn't fathom my life without him in it. I
spiraled downward into a dark depression of thoughts...
"Q, apa tunggu lagi.....cepatlah.....", Khai mengajak aku. Aku berjalan menuju ke tangga ke Villa Imran sambil memaling ke arah Imran.......
Why did I acted so foolish? I am so sorry Q I hurt your feelings. She should have spoke the truth. Alright if she wants some space...., I'll give her space. If I happened to run into her just walk past her and pretend she is not there. Am I being childish here?
That day I did not try to contact Q and she didn't either....rasa menyesal melepaskan Q pagi tadi. "Oh.....Q, I missed you.....", bisik Imran sambil mengosok-gosokkan kepalanya. "Aduh naik gila aku dibuatnya. Tak boleh jadi ni.....". Serba serbi aku rasa tak kena hari ini.
I grabbed my surfboard again return to the beach that evening. Aku cuba untuk menenangkan fikiran aku.
When I paddle back to the beach, aku terlihat seolah-olah bayang Q berdiri di tepi pantai. Kayuhan aku semakin laju dan deras. Aku mahu segera sampai ke pantai......
Yes, I was not dreaming. It was Q. I walked towards her and stood still. Dia tersenyum memandang aku......bagai nak luruh jantung aku. Hendak saja aku merangkul dan memeluk dia. Tapi aku harus bersikap 'cool' dalam situasi ini. To pretend she's not there.....and walk away.....? That's foolish of me.......
"Hi.....", she said. I did not react but just stood in front of her. "Imran, I tak bermaksud untuk meninggalkan you siang tadi. I had a choice to make. Petang ini I pulang ke sini dengan harapan you boleh memaafkan I?", she explained her presence.
"Maafkan Q, Imran......I rasa you lebih faham dan bersikap rational with my decision to leave this morning.", she elaborated further.
"I understood....very well. And how are your friends? Are they mad at me?", aku bertanya dan bergerak menghampirinya.
"They are fine....and they are not mad at you. By the way, they said Hi........", Q said as she looked at me. I took her hand and she held tight. I bent down a little and nuzzle my nose against her nose. She fell right into my arms.
