"Ha.....dah mai dah Emir......Q pun ada sekali....baguih, baguih. Mai masuk. Mesti lapaq na....mai makan dulu....", greeted Pak Uda. Aku sped up a bit and salam both Pak Uda, Mak Uda and other relatives....
"Mommy dan Daddy kirim salam....mereka minta maaf sebab tak dapat datang. Ada business trip yang tak dapat dielakkan...", and Mak Uda hugged me so tight.....
"Hang ni Q saling tak tumpah muka arwah mak hang......darah Siam memang pekat dalam darah hang......eloklah hang sampai jugak aloq staq ni....boleh kenai-kenai sedara belah sini na.....", said Mak Uda sambil mengelap air matanya. I released myself from her arms and smiled.
"Mak Uda....dah lah...tak mau sedih ya.....itu cerita lama.....Ni, mana kembar...?", aku cuba mengalihkan tajuk perbualan.
Pak Uda jawab, "Depa ada kat dalam tu....mai Emir mai masuk...kita makan dulu. Yang lain dok sibuq masak-masak kat rumah sebelah....". Aku dan Emir lalu masuk ke dalam rumah dan mengambil tempat duduk masing-masing.....
Sambil makan kami berbual-bual mesra. Maklumlah dah lama aku tak rapat dengan keluarga sebelah arwah ayah aku. Aku cuba tidak bercerita banyak hal family sekarang walaupun Pak Uda ada bertanyakan tentang business daddy dan juga kisah peribadi aku bila di hadapan Emir. Just do not want him to have the wrong impression about me....
"Hang tu Emir, apa habaq dengan Munirah? Semua baik-baik ka....?" Tanya Pak Uda pada Emir. Emir looks cool and relax.....
"Alhamdulillah okay saja.....", he replied.
"Bini dulu tak da anak.....la ni ada berita baik ka.....", sapa Mak Uda. Yes, macam tu perbualan sedara mara bila lama tak jumpa. Pedih kadang-kadang bila di dengar. Very direct....sama saja macam Emir....No wonder lah dia very sarcastic and not looking forward to this trip. Aku hanya diam dan tunduk semasa perbualan Mak Uda dan Emir.
"Saya sudah failkan peceraian saya dengan Munirah...", he said. He washed his hands and left the table. I looked up. He looked so pissed off. "Maaf saya dah kenyang...".
"Hah, Astarafirullahahazim...tu la cerai lagi...hang ni apa nak jadi....dah dua kali dah Emir....pergi berubatlah....", Mak Uda membebel.
"Sudah la....dia dah besar. Pandai-pandailah dia uruskan diri dia....hang tak payah risau...dah, dah malu sikit ni kat Q......mengucap sikit....", Ucap Pak Uda. Aku hanya memerhatikan Mak Uda kemudian Pak Uda....dan akhirnya memerhatikan makanan yang masih banyak dalam pingan. Aku pun hilang selera. I wish I didn't have to be here so that aku tak kenal Blue cap No. 9. Selesai makan dan mengemas aku keluar untuk menghirup udara luar.
Sungguh nyaman sekali. "Wow......sawah...", I said to myself and walk closer to the edge of paddy fields. Green and fresh. Aku mendepakan kedua tangan. Angin sepoi menghembus ke muka ku....and I spin......
"This is the only reason I came back.....not because of the wedding. The wedding was just an excuse. I missed all you just witnessed...angin di sini kalahkan angin di tepi pantai.". It was Emir sitting on a make shift hut. I walk closer and sat next to him.
"Well, my whole life story broke lose all in one afternoon....", he said and looked at me. Aku hanya mampu mengangkat bahu dan mencebik bibir.
"Each and every one of us have our own dark secrets......By the way I know where you get those sarcastic attitude.....from this side of the family....", I giggled. Emir smiled.
"Tau tak pa.....", and he lit up a cigarette. He closed his eyes and blew out a single puff.
"Emir....., boleh saya beri satu nasihat yang berguna...?", I whisper to his ears.
He said, "Yes.", and looked straight to the paddy fields.
"Nobody owns you except Allah....", and I pointed up. He looked at me with interest. "We were given choices in life. You could go either way...., right or wrong. Nobody is perfect." I remember Imran said that when he told me about the choices his mother made. I looked at Emir and smile. He smile back at me and nodded, "Thanks.."
I sat there next to Emir in silence. We were just listening to sound of the water flowing from the small canal. The coconuts leaves brushing against each other as they swish.....to the left and to the right. From time to time we glance and smile to each other enjoying the tingling cool sensation passed by.
"If you need someone to talk to, I am available. Only when you are ready.....", I whispered again and left him there.
As I walked away, "Hey.....", I heard him called. I turned and stop to face him. "Apa...?", I shouted back at him.
"What does Q stands for...?", he asked. I smile and replied gladly, "Quxandria, my name is Quxandria....and don't you forget that....". I turn and walk away.
"Hey....", he called out again. I turn and look at him. "What now...", I asked sambil mencekak pinggang.
He said, "Beautiful name for someone who is beautiful inside and out....".
"Wow, panjangnya judul novel you.....", I replied and stuck out my tongue.
He called out again.....
I just walk away......
Credit to You Tube and Geri Halliwell
Note : Pictures and images are for illustration purpose only and are sources from Google.
