Aku berjalan di tepi tali air. Terdengar desiran alunan air memecahkan sunyi sepi pagi. Sayup-sayup angin menghembus rambut aku but I love how it made me feel. Aku tergelak.
Tarian dahan-dahan kelapa sebagai mempersembahkan sebuah taridra. Aku hanya berdiri di sini dan tersenyum puas. I just want to feel and enjoy this moment. I know it can't never be the same again. Seronok sungguh aku rasakan....peluang kembali ke negeri jelapang padi. Pengalaman berada di tengah sawah dan bendang tak akan aku lupakan. Percikan air kedengaran dari ikan yang berenang mengejutkan aku dari khayalan.
Aku teringatkan Imran. Jejaka yang telah mencuri hati ini sesungguhnya menepati cita rasa. Tak kurang tak lebih. Very humble guy and husband material. Kami mempunyai kegemaran yang sama. Yes, I am fatally in love with him. Tapi Imran merasakan aku kebudak-budakan which I tend to be sometimes. Karakter itu aku terbawa-bawa....maklumlah aku satu-satunya anak perempuan didalam keluarga. Semestinya aku bersikap manja. But lately, I am sensing some strain in our relationship, like being suspicious towards him most times. Jealous? Who? Me!?
Until came blue cap No. 9 t-shirt guy.....aku merasakan masih banyak perkara yang harus aku terokai rather being tied down at young age. I glanced at my engagement ring. Pemberian berharga dari Imran.....dan memutar cincin itu ke kiri dan ke kanan jari aku.....Aku mengeluh. Suddenly this guy appeared out of the blue and he has been constantly in my mind. Kerap bertemu di taman permainan semasa beriadah.....tak pernah bertegur sapa. Sekadar membalas senyuman. Kemudian pertemuan yang tak di sangka di KL Central menuju ke utara membuahkan sebuah persahabatan yang complex. Itu perasaan aku saja and no pressure from anyone...he makes me come alive again.....
"Are you feeling what I'm feeling...?"
I turned around and saw Emir. Berkain pelikat dan kopiah. Aku tergelak melihat another sight of Emir. Far from the rugged jeans and worn t-shirt.
"What's so funny...?", he asked and looking not so happy at me. He walked closer and I stepped back.
"Nothing.....!", I answered and looked away. My right arm was pulled from behind. I did not resist....I said, "Okay....okay....It's just you look.....different....that's all...". And he let go of my arm but held on to my finger tips. Aku menarik dengan perlahan jejari aku sambil melirik ke arah Emir.
"Different ....macamana tu...", he asked as he stood next to me facing the paddy fields. His hands are in his pocket 'baju melayu'.
"I could never imagine you as a kain pelikat guy......", I replied. I turn to see his respond. He took off his kopiah, fold it and placed in his pocket.
"So, you have you been imagining me these days.....?" dia tiba-tiba tergelak dan memandang aku.
Aku memperbetulkan rambut dari menutupi muka aku yang dari tadi asyik di tiup angin. "Tak de lar....jangan nak perasan sangat.....I always see you as the tough, rugged guy in faded jeans....itu saja.....", aku jawab. Sekumpulan burung terbang melintasi pemandangan kami.
"Kita orang melayu...ikut resmi padi lah..." he replied. I did not look at him as I smiled to his respond. "Look...! matahari dah nak naik.....cantikkan...?", Emir menghampiri aku lalu menunding jari kearah langit. Kami terdiam sambil memerhatikan sinar matahari yang mula menonjolkan dirinya.
"Tak sangka ya.....kita related...?" I said.
"Yeah.....jauh perjalanan kita....tinggal berhampiran tapi tak pernah nak sapa each other and now we are somehow related.... hmmm...., how are we related...?", he asked. Aku tergelak melayan Emir.
Aku mengangkat bahu. "Entahlah....Pak Uda would know....", my guess.
"I better go back to the house and see if there's anything I can help around.", I told Emir. He grin at me....aku sekadar tersenyum.
"Q...", he called. I looked at him and raised my eyebrows. He stood close next to me in the opposite direction. Our shoulder rubbed against each other. He press his arms slightly on mine and he whispered, "I suka dapat berkenalan dengan you...", as he moves back his head.
"Did you just made a passed at me....you are not serious, right?", I asked. He still stood next to me.
"What if I did....? Tak salahkan?", he sounds convincing.
I face his side of the body. That moment my attention was diverted when I saw Mak Uda was looking at both of us from a distance. "Don't turn....Mak Uda is staring at us.", aku melambai-lambaikan tangan ke arah Mak Uda. I do not want to create suspicion in her mind. Mak Uda membalas lambaianku dan berlalu masuk ke pintu utama rumah.
As I stood there, "Emir,.....I am engaged. So I rasa it's not appropriate to talk to me that way...", I explained.
"I know.....but don't you think you should get out of your shell and date other guys instead of tying yourself down the first guy you like? You always discredit yourself.. You are beautiful inside and out and I really meant it. I mean......I like to ask you out sometime....", he stood still and replied calmly.
Credit to Luis Miguel Chacon Marin and You Tube
I was speechless for a few seconds. "You? Asking me out....? Ghezzz you surely are very direct Emir. You give me adrenaline rush because being with you....., I just don't know what to expect. One minute you are friendly and suddenly you just change to the moody bastard you have always been......Having you as a husband.....I pity each and every one of your ex-wives. They had to endure your fluctuate tempremental on daily basis.......", I voice out my opinion of him.
He turn to face me. His face was red......Before he could say anything......."You can't intimidate me, Emir......", so I added.
There, I said to his face. I let go all the things I've bottled up for so long. I stared at him as he was staring at me too. Then it made me think.....about he said......Why not? He's right....why shouldn't I meet other guys.....? Why not give him a chance? I was thinking to myself. Ishhhh.......tak baik aku buat Imran macam ni. But we are not officially engaged.....if he can meet his old girl friend, why shouldn't I? He doesn't own me.....lagi pun Emir dan aku ada pertalian saudara.....
Aku memberanikan diri......"Okay.....,one dinner and that's all....", I was stern when I replied and I don't want to think any more. Let's go spur of the moment kind of thing.... I don't have to enjoy it but just to get him off my back..
I saw his smile.....a smile of satisfaction....of getting things his way....."That's all I'm asking......that's all I'm asking, Q....", he replied.
He put his right hand on my shoulder. "Your words were subtle and painfully struck my heart. I'll prove you I am not the son of a bitch you thought I was.". He was serious.
"My flight is this evening back to KL. So, you have my number.....call me, maybe?", I annouced and walkaway.....my finale.
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